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ahhhh ;;; damn they do intimacy so well in this comic :,(( I sometimes find myself skipping the smut in bl cause you already know how it’s gonna play out and ngl ‘m more invested in the development of characters/ relationship/ plot side of things etc (I have no qualms with smut scenes!! :0 i just noticed sometimes it can be repetitive even if I like the pairing)

BUT occasionally, the smut is so good because you’re still learning something about the characters/relationships and how they’re developing and you can really FEEL that chemistry between them orz (OR maybe cause authors/artists write/draw smut scenes with immaculate vibes that too I totally agree )

(in ch 43: how Andrew only wants to please Luke even at his own expense (consistent with before where he purposefully hurt his hand god he loves his undivided attention), Luke continuing to be a damn good partner by communicating ‘n being so considerate and reasonable, how Andrew literally takes any chance he can get to have as much contact with Luke as possible (like genuinely he’s grabbing him in a tight hold in practically every single panel in LOOK AT HIM he’s so obsessed), and how they’re able to act silly yet intimate even AFTER the smut with it still feeling sincere. like that wasn’t a joke or gag just for us the reader- that’s a joke between just the two of them in the safety of eachother’s arms and they look so happy (ouuhh they’re so in love they’re so sweet to eachother they’ve come a long way ouuuuhh they make me SICK /j) plus the art is so good ouuughh i’ll never go hungry with you here please don’t end soon :((( (overall tho nerd project very good A+ big fan of these goofy men )

tldr; “nerd has epiphany about smut while reading the current chapter about two men in love boning ” or “person thinks sexy time is peak writing *sometimes* (this time tho yeah sure it very good (▰˘◡˘▰)b )

Lots of paragraphs again apologies it’s massive ;; I’m parroting a lot from an old comment I’ve made but I think I better understand my thoughts?

Still an interesting premise! But- I really want to enjoy it more but in the back of my mind I keep thinking about how powerful/godlike* he’s become and I can’t shake the feeling of being in a group project with someone, them buying all the materials, sitting back and taking the credit orz It’s just my bias and personal preference but I think this has made me realize that although I’ve read quite a few of them before, I don’t really enjoy these power fantasy, reverse isekai stories if it doesn’t come with any meaningful human connections ;; I really tried to enjoy this story!! but every update I’ve read in hopes for a change does add to getting stronger/ helping him get his family back/upgrade/power up I guess yet the characters themselves seem so static/unchanging if that makes sense?

(*godlike in a literal way with all his powers and loyalty/devoted followers)

Mc hasn’t had a single genuine conversation yet (positive, negative, no real thank yous, no learning about the lives of the people he’s so heavily relied on, there’s no mental conflict in his head he doesn’t even think twice about any of his actions, there’s no acknowledgement that he doesn’t care either, anything other than getting stronger) and trust is still a statistic he’s trying to game-ify. No friends or any real complex relationships yet and every chapter makes me feel like that will never change ;; He doesn’t seem “good” but the story doesnt make him seem “morally dubious” either if that makes sense? You can read his actions that way for sure (seeing people as pawns without caring for their opinions before making decisions for them with consequences that may cost them their lives) but the depiction of his actions in the story reads like it’s a level up or just the natural choice and no one really minds it orz I feel crazy reading the way some characters react (or lack of reaction) to his actions.

In my head, I can’t stop seeing it as “guy with a god complex with the powers and a loyal following to back it up”

I can see how this story can be hype though!!! Of him eventually finding his family and through the ways he gets more advantages to do so. I just don’t think the way the premise is handled is my cup of tea ;; might come back later later, let it marinate instead. I’m curious how he’d react if someone he’s utilized so heavily dies or if the story ever tackles his character more. Oh! and what happens after he gets his family back? I hope we’d be able to see more emotion in him/ sides of him when its directed towards his family. How easy it is for him to not acknowledge the struggles of his followers/be more emotionally distant when he’s in the building, watching as a spectator/ like its all a game and never on the frontlines.

Sorry for all the yapping!! I just wanted to put my thoughts somewhere I heard there was a novel? I’m curious what it’s like from the source and if I’m just making a completely wrong read of this story/ if im ranting wayyy too early and some of these things eventually happens :0!! It’s barely chapter 24!!! I have too many incorrect opinions I can’t help but type somewhere so I can stop thinking about it