saint vincent want to read (All 69)
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read the whole thing in one sitting... imo the only reasonable ending would be MC murder-suiciding himself and blondie.
i feel slightly relieved that the author didn't redeem anything or try to throw in a weak 'chasing' arc, i'm real tired of that shit. abuse is intolerable, no amount of groveling can repair the damage it leaves
i hate how much this story reminded me of living at home with my mom. to be clear, she never sexually abused me. but she intentionally designed my life so that i had no freedom. so that i would be forced to stay by her side, despite how insufferable and overbearing she was. i wanted to kill myself so bad... i constantly daydreamed about dying, i tried a few times but lacked the courage (+ a sharp knife) to follow through. i particulaly relate to the sense of aimlessness he developed in later chapters... the desire to drown everything out because reality is too painful...
with that said, i find the ending of this story incredibly revolting... he sacrificed everything to escape his abuser, only to come back because he lacks the strength to start anew. and then it just ends with a pithy "this is probably a bad idea". extending a huge, heartily felt f*ck you to the writer, who i hope has never been in an abusive relationship. because if they wrote this ending knowing how it feels to be completely at the mercy of a cruel and unstable human being... it's unforgivable that they wrote him going back.