-redacted-'s Things

in 2022, someone made a forum post about writing to our future selves through a website called futureme, and the letter would be sent to us on the date & year we chose. i couldn’t find the original forum post, and i never commented under it either. anyway, i wrote one for myself to be sent in 2023, but i forgot the name of the site and i don’t regularly check my emails, so i didn’t know how else i could find it.

then today, i found the website searched the name on gmail, and i did receive it. if anyone wants to write to their future self—maybe 1 year, 5 years, or even 10 years from now—here’s the link:
https://www.futureme.org/letters/new





here's mine from 16 yr me but i had some parts redacted just cus..

The following is a letter from January 05, 2022, delivered from the past by FutureMe. This was sent on December 12, 2023.

Dear FutureMe,
Hey, [redacted], it's me. Today is January 5th, 2022 and we have been in the COVID-19 pandemic for 2 years now. Some schools here aren't open yet. I'm not that smart, so I'm currently struggling with my studies, unable to focus and unable to understand. I really hope that schools will finally open this year, even though part of me doesn't want to go back because [redacted], but what can I do? Studying has become hard for me. [redacted]. Oh well, [redacted] take and I honestly don't know. I don't know what course I'll take in college. I don't know want to become in the future. I can't see myself in the future. I actually [redacted] this. [redacted] abortion illegal? I [redacted], even if it was illegal. [redacted] 'future.' I hope I'm still alive at the age of 18. I'd still be able to get this email and read it. Hopefully, things will be better than they are right now. I hate this life. I know that some people out there have it worse than me, but I just really hate this. It honestly seems like a punishment for me for [redacted].

- From my 16 year old self



well, 16-year-old me, it doesn’t get better and i can’t believe i actually wished to stay alive until 18. (gonna write a new one for myself next year and for 2028, because that’s the year i’ll graduate.)

will be posting screenshots below

i'm convinced i'm gonna go insane one day with how much i daydream or maladaptive daydream or whatever the heck it's called. id be makig up scenarios and then a few weeks or months later i get confused if that actually happened or not.

anyone’s mom addicted to bl dramas? my mom started watching a few months ago- from fili bl to k-bl to thai bl. when we went out to eat to celebrate her birthday, she pulled out her phone and started watching a thai bl on the way to the restaurant. while we waited for the food, she was still watching. when we got home, she did the same. she even did this on my uncle’s birthday and during our outing.

she works from midnight till dawn, but once she’s done, she just continues watching bl instead of getting any sleep in the morning.

it’s 8 am right now, and i’m hearing the kinnporsche theme song from her phone with men heavily breathing.

usually happens when it's been a long time since I masturbated. It hurts, but I don't want to do it because I feel like shit afterward anyway. Is this normal????