
Ugh I'm upset, there is a person I used to talk and I loved them so much but one day they sent a msg and I was busy so I didn't reply, later when I did, they didn't see my message. We used to talk daily but after that time, they never talked to me again and it showed that their phone is disconnected.. It made me worry because we love each other a lot so if they would have wanted to talk to me they would have have used another device, I had many dark thought like what if they died and shit. All what I hope is that they lost their phone. It was hard for me because I used to vent my daily problems to them, they were so close to my heart. I worried and I even cried and stayed up till 3 am, I always send a msg.. I didn't want to say all of that here in this yaoi site, actually I wanted to vent here so many times but I always thought it's unnecessary.. However, since it's almost.. 2018. I didn't want to leave that person behind.. Nothing is as beautiful as it was before,everything is bitter.. And I want to be happy and normal because there is no point being sad.
How do you make sure a person didn't die on internet? All what I know about that person is their height,name,date of birth, look and where they live.. I searched for them but I didn't find them.. Meh.. You don't have to say anything if you read this, I'm just venting,, it makes me feel better.

Did they not talk to you again, ever? If they really cared, they would find some means of communicating, you should just drop them and move on. I think the possibility of one of your internet friends dying is pretty low, even if you know a little of where they live. A lot of times on the internet, and it's pretty sad/ignorant, people can just drop a conversation with another person and never hit them up again. Ya know, since it's the internet and you don't have to meet in real life and have to address the matter. I say just get over that person. If you know where they live or some significant part of their identity you can look up any deaths in their area or under their name. People are pretty strong and wouldn't kill themselves or get hurt terribly after a breakup, or dropping someone, in the most common case. Sorry this is a long paragraph but I just want you to rest assured there is a very high possibility that nothing happened to them, they either got tired of you or didn't want to talk to you. Can you still view your past convo? If they haven't been saying much about themselves or just saying 1-3 word replies like "yeah" "lol" "right me too" "ahaha" then that shows they probably just dropped it.
Damn this was long but yeah lol don't worry!! Everything will turn out fine as long as you believe in it.

It's ok dear, I wish it was the case, we talked normally, they are with me in so many other groups, they only don't talk me only when they are depressed, but they immediately talk back to reassure me... We talked daily for more than 6 months, he actually used to always vent to me and we had alot in common.. The last message was " good afternoon, that group is cringy" I replied I will check, it showed it's sent but not seen, later it showed that their battery is dead,finally after 2 weeks it showed their phone is disconnected. I hope they are okay from all of my heart.. And I like to belied their phone is broken. I searched for their name, he actually live in Ontario Canada, so I searched for his name there but I didn't find anything. He has my number but I don't have his, we know how we both look like, our voices etc...
I hope he is okay, and thank you for you concern and for giving me little hope..

I'll have to be honest. I have this one special online friend whom I met back in 2009 on MangaFox (I hate that site now and it's just dead). We bonded through Pokemon and battling, and from the forums, it moved on to MSN messenger. We talked a lot about the things we liked. He was always sharing his favorite videos on Youtube, and we even tried watching one of my favorite Asian dramas at the time together. We would stop playing the video at certain parts and just talk shit about it. And of course, we talked about Pokemon a whole fuck ton. It got to the point that we shared each other's FB profiles. I learned of his name and he learned of mine. And we got to see what we both looked like. We moved on from messenger and just chatted on FB.
But later on, the amount of time we spent talking to each other continued to dwindle down. I had started to find him just a tad bit annoying. I don't want to sound mean, but the way he acts (chats?) seemed childish. He would make up these anime-like scenarios and always talked about being a Pokemon master. He would do this every time we chat. But I didn't want to hurt him directly and tell him to stop because I was able to tolerate it most of the time. So, I started to reply later than usual. I always said, "Oh, I was busy" (although it is true in half of the cases). I also felt tired about chatting in general. I'm a private person, and I like spending maybe 80% of my time alone (that's why I have no social life except for the few times that I did go out with friends). Then it just continued, and I think he understood what was happening. I felt really bad, but at the same time, I couldn't be straightforward. I even made myself hidden from him on Facebook, so that he couldn't tell when I got online. Yeah, I know. This is not how friendships should be.
Then, we just stopped talking completely. For a whole year. When this mobile game from one of my favorite games came out almost two years ago, I created a Skype chat for the people in my party to discuss the game. I hadn't used Skype in so long, and I know that Facebook and transfer contacts. So when I got online, he saw me and started chatting. We just caught up with each other. We talked about family, school, just life in general, and how drastic of a change a year made. It felt nicer to just...not see each for so long and then be able to talk a whole bunch.
I don't want to make this any longer than necessary, but now we just grew a routine wherein I talk to him once every two weeks. Always on holidays though. But I wanted to give you my perspective on the matter. I want to be realistic with you. There are many reasons as to why someone might not want to contact another. My reason was mainly just space.

...personal tips to help with insomnia?

Made myself busy and tired during the day,
drank a lot of water like a fish,
ate fruits and vegetables to attempt healthy lifestyle,
sweat myself,
plank....strecthing.....,
if I couldn't sleep at night then I tried not sleeping the whole day until night comes
so far it somehow works huhu

Read a chapter book
Eat things that are high in carbs and protein (like Dairy: milk, cheese, yogurt
Soy: milk, tofu, soybeans
Whole grains: breads, cereals
Rice, oatmeal
Seeds: sesame, sunflower, flax
Nuts: hazelnuts, peanuts, walnuts
Beans, lentils, chickpeas
Protein: eggs, cold cuts, peanut butter
Fish: salmon, halibut, tuna
Calcium rich: kale
Magnesium rich: almonds
It takes about an hour for the tryptophan to reach your brain, so plan ahead and do not eat right before sleeping! Here’s some thing u can eat as a snack...
Cereal and milk (whole grain and low in sugars)
Whole grain peanut butter sandwich
Oatmeal or oatmeal cookies with milk
Whole grain tortilla chips with hummus
Yogurt with nut toppings
Things to avoid:Caffeine: coffee(of course), chocolate, cola, tea
Junk foods or processed carbs
Foods high in fat, oils or spices
Alcohol, nicotine(if u smoke)

Also do something that has your body do work....such as what said above (reading. Excerise, meditate)

Set a routine and stick to it. If you don't have one already, it's gonna be hard but keep trying to get a routine down. Part of having a routine is sleeping at a regular time.
Unplug from your phone, laptop, pc, tvs, gaming stations, etc. at least an hour before sleeping.
Exercise - I've had trouble sleeping for years but I've always slept like a baby on days when I exercise. Exercise is not as bad as you think it will be. You might even think strength training is just for gym bros, but it's not. I like to strength train, bike, take walks, run on a treadmill, and do yoga/workout videos.
Get your daily vitamin D. It doesn't take long, just 10 minutes a day in the sun without sunscreen. I don't have a source of this, learned it in nutrition class.

Look for ASMR videos in you tube. It's a great help!

I feel like reading a fucked up story, can be gorish bloody with lots of violence,pain, sadness etc...
Any genre is okay bl,gl, etc...
Someone recommend me their fav?

Well.... usually any I bump into I immediately want to forget so I can't really help you there.
Try http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/funouhan/
And the manga "Berserk". Someone recommended it to me and I regret looking into it.

Doreiku Boku to 23-nin no Dorei

Tori Maia

Found this list http://www.mangago.zone/home/mangalist/38849/ maybe you will find some here

Try Itou-san by Kuraka Sui. It's somewhat disturbing and bittersweet.
http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/itou_san_kuraka_sui/
There's also a prequel to Itou-san called I: Episode 0.

I honestly don't like asking a lot about mangas and prefers searching on my own but here you are pro manga readers.HELP
Please recommend me a manga girl x boy, that is not typical (like the girl not acting weak or tsundere) that actually has a plot with actual sex scenes (smutty ones >.>)
⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄ and thank you.

http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/talk_to_me/
I DONT READ GIRL X BOY BUT EVERYONE LIKES THIS MANHWA AND IVE SEEN EDITS ABOUT THIS, WHICH ARE HOOOTT. ALSO,YOU SHOULD READ IT IN THE ORIGINAL TRANSLATORS PAGE FOR BETTER QUALITY
Lmao, am I like the only one who can't vent to their parents without getting disappointing/bashing answers from them.
Like something happened and I didn't know the details about it exactly so I told my father my point of view on it but he bashed me and really ruined my mood.
parents are good like that lol
when i told them i was feeling depressed, worst mistake bro
They cannot think of us having a different point of view. Till some stage in childhood, they have always seen us copying them or doing whatever they taught. But we develop our personality at some stage. Most parents(my dad too) just cannot accept this change of view. They get angry without reason as we're not doing or talking as they expected!( ̄へ ̄)they love us, they just don't know how to deal with us anymore!
Same same
I can talk to mom for hours on end but in the end I don't convince her and she dosent convince me. It's like they think or points are invalid or something just because we're younger than them.
It's so frustrating