the last straightbender's Things

This is my first time asking a question but I don't want to feel like I'm the only dumb bitch out there, so hit me with the dumbest comment you've ever done here (which you now cringe over).

Mine are related to being a fujoshi (LORD SAVE ME). I think it was bc I was exploring my sexuality so bl kinda stood out for me in a way straight relationships didn't (since I was small all I've ever seen was straights everywhere so homo-erotic fiction felt like a new world).

Now that I know I'm a biromantic ace I realized I enjoyed reading gay fiction bc it's so removed from myself that I don't find it disgusting like I would do if a female character I can relate to was the one having relations (sorry my brain kinda malfunctions so if this seems impossible to understand to someone or is offensive in some way, I can only apologize).

Anyway the way I spoke when I was younger is straight up cringe so I can't help but be embarrassed of my old self (っ˘╭╮˘)っ if you find topics I initiated from before 2018/19 then go the other way pls, I don't want to be reminded they exist

This question got a lot of courage for me to write so if you got angry by something I said pls point it out nicely or else I'm going to literally go into seclusion (〒﹏〒)