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I'm coming to terms with the fact that I'm slowly becoming a junkie. I'm a junior and I first got hlgh in 9th grade. It was from a dispo (we3d oil) and ik damn well I shoulda stopped when the first thing I thought was "this is staying with me". Since then I basically get hlgh any chance I get (everyday) and its so bad to the point i was hlgh every day of January 2024.

I haven't taken a longer break than 23 days beacuse I had to for a surgery, but it was hard asf cuz I cant stand being sober. I eventually got the surgery which was a month ago and was perscribed oxy for the pain. Since I couldn't access we3d cuz i was bedridden, my dumbass heard abt oxy and and decided to take more than prescribed and I finished 5 days worth of meds in 2 days (do not recommend). After that, I decided to try to get hlgh on one of my other medications which are for seizures and it actually worked. I've been tempted to take more of them, but held back. And recently, since I don't have weed, i decided it would be a good idea to st3al alcoh0l (ik I'm dumb asff) and I drank ts and hated it(second time drlnklng ever). Idk what my life has come to, but I just needed to get that off my chest. I told myself that I would never abuse my seizure meds again or st3al alcoh0l, but idk if I can bring myself to stop sm0king since everyone around me does and i can't go through a school day being sober If u have a similar experience, please share. If u want to give me tips, please do

I have epilepsy, i have had it for almost three years and my first seizure was in a bathroom i had a focal seizure with impaired awareness but my family didnt know so they thought i was playing a prank or something but i wasnt so like 6 minutes passed then they realized i wasnt joking they called 911 the ambulance came they asked me basic questions and i couldn't respond because i would try and answer but no words would come out and i couldn't fully understand stand what they were saying even tho im fluent in English then i started to breat abnormally so i was taken to the er for some reason i couldn't see unless i blurred my vision so later that day i was sluggish and tired the nurse walked in and they gave me medications for my headache and a hour later i had a seizure again but this time it was normal and i fell asleep, the next day i couldn't walk i had to use a walker to shower and use the bathroom fast forward a 2 hours they took me to get a MRI ( brain scanner/ xray) it was so loud and annoying but i felt so much better after i slept my headache away the next day a doctor came in and had explained to me what had happened and told me i have TLE ( temporal lobe epilepsy) i was shocked and speechless so i translated for my mom who was with me she was so shocked and sad i spent the rest of the day comprehending what the doctor told me and if i were gonna be alright, the next day i was free to go. I told the rest of my family everything that had happened and i haven't had a seizure since that day (sorry for some grammar mistakes). Whats ur condition? And if u want share ur story

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