Might be overshare but my mom died of stage 4 cancer. She also contracted pneumonia. This hit too close to home. I had tears in my eyes the whole time reading this but it wasn't until I got to that point where I bawled.
That aside, I loved this. Love is great but sometimes the insecurity just gnaws into your bones. I can see that here perfectly. The fact that both of them were losing their confidence in themselves but never in their love for each other. At the end of it all, love triumphed because there was never really any choice for them but that. I'm actually at a loss for words as to how to portray their relationship but I just think it's beautiful. They're beautiful. The two of them together is beautiful. All their hurt, joy, pain, happiness, etc is beautiful.
It's 4:31 am and I just...can't. This was lovely.
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Never even crossed his mind that he was impotent. Is that the right word? Dude can't have kids coz he mistakenly drank some meds meant for Navier to make it impossible for her to get pregnant. If I remember it correctly, Navier recovers from the meds only after she lived in the other kingdom for a time. Of course she gets pregnant and Sovieshu hears about it. Tut tut
Which makes all the shit Sovieshu did look so damn immature. I mean, there are real-life, bad, historical kings but man. To disrespect a Queen who loved her nation so much that worked to the bone for them. It does her credit that even her own citizens just wants her to be happy. Sure, some think she betrayed them by marrying out. But some do want her to be happy too which I found to be nice.
Takara can't help himself but be attracted to our little cinnamon roll. The problem is, Taishin is too innocent. It would have been so easy for Takara to take advantage of Taishin what with his hero worship and all. However, that would put too much power in Takara's hands and didn't quite sit well with him. On one hand, Takara didn't want to take care of Taishin as a normal sempai to a kohai what with him being attracted to cinnaboy cutie. So, he steers the conversation so that Taishin himself realizes his feelings making it so that Takara has an actual excuse to spoil and dote on him...
Did that make sense? I mean, from what I understood, Takara wants to monopolize Taishin but not under the guise of an idolized hero. He wants Taishin to realize that it's not just hero woship he feels for him. In that way, when they get together, they actually start off on equal footing.
My thoughts on the chapater (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
Well well well. Those cuffs on him are sexy af