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Man i hate i hate the feeling of having a best friend but im not her best friend never in my life where i had friend that sees me as the best friend im always the one who cares more the one who keep in touch if not we spend months not talking im so tired id rather have no friends no feelings its so painful it hurts am i being dramatic like the other day i had plan with a friend i paid for the plan she dipped cuz her other fringes wanted to hangout with her all she had to do wast attend for like 30 mintues at times likes this it hurt like hell i feel like a doormat