grrah i have a crush on a gay guy he's got a receding hairline but i still like him wtF HE'S GOT LONG HAIR and hes super duper brainy like lets call him Neeky
Ok update she's trans mtf and said she'd let me peg her dawg I'm winning we had a nice deep chat online (23/08/24)
update we're still talking but she doesn't like me like that but i think i'm special to her cus she doesn't talk to many people and alot of people who talk to her she doesn't talk back much but she does with me and we tease eachother rtbhbgbhjgbtrhgt (19/11/24)
realised that i have a type for neeky, doesn't talk to many people but funny when you get to know them long haired tall skinny twink built guys/gals/whoever and she literally fits that description (19/11/24)
Update umm so she was a massive sub and we were talking about our sex fantasies and stuff and she said she wouldn't mind trying out me domming her so I was like "hell yeah" BUT it was all online so it was so weird and I didn't like get that hard and she's way more freaky than me and I was like "the stuff I wanna do is physical I don't really wanna do it online" so I said we should stop and she agreed so ig that's that I'll be going to uni eventually so I suppose I'll find someone who will be my little puppy to do whatever I want them to and will love me forever right right???? Low-key she's kind of an ick now and all we do now is send reels and it's a little awkward if I'm honest but whatever we'll see what the future has in store for me all I know is that she doesn't see me as a potential partner and I don't see her as one so let's leave it as that obviously I still have lingering feelings for her but I don't think of her or want to be with her as much so hopefully this is a sign I'm moving on... (01/01/25)
Update: I'm just really lonely and I'm so self conscious it's ruining my relationships I can't make friends easily and it's even harder to keep them everyone hates me hopefully uni will be a new start(01/01/25)
Update i went to the movies with Neeky again and i fingered her mouth again and like almost got my whole hadn in and when i asked her why didt she gag she said she practised and my hadn diddnt get that far anyway HOW WMBARASSING highkey the whole time i was just thinking bout how i wnted to make out with her right there and then but liek we were with my friend aswell so that wouldve been awkward ive liked her since july/august 2023... i also had a dream today i invited her to my house and we got freaky... am i cooked???(07/02/25)
Update: umm so we dont rllly talk anymore cus im tryna distance myself from her cus shes going to a top uni and whatever, i think im finally gettig over her cus i dont think of her as much even though she still catches my eye in school and shi. my relationships with friends has gotten much better, i have lots of friends now and i think that she is just not worth it. we got freaky on text again a whike ago and she said shes my puppy and shit but after that we never talked ab it again. i dont talk to her in school so i am just going to give up. i have liked her since Monday the 3rd July 2023. WHAT THE FUCK?!!? (24/03/25)
