Recyclepls's Things

I'm like literally so lonely it's not even funny. Idk why I'm typing this for validation to vent? Idk I feel like no one even really acknowledges my existence or struggles tbh. Like I tried to kill myself this month, my mom called an ambulance and everything and then everything just went back to the way it was, expected to still attend classes even though I struggle to retain knowledge this days. The biggest exams of my academic career is this year, dictating which university I might go to so yeah I feel so stupid, yet I still dont have the motivation to study. My mom just pretends it never happened, that or she asks, gets angry at me for trying to kill myself???? I'm supposed to go to therapy but my mom is opposed to taking me. Last time I went I was diagnosed with autism but she doesn't believe the diagnosis or anything. She didn't even tell me I just found out like months afterwards cause I found the paperwork Pleh. I was literally just chilling a minute ago and started sobbing so I probs needed to get this out or sumn, ik this isnt like therapy or anything.

And I'm not talking about BJ Alex, Painter of the Night, Killing Stalking, Love is an illusion etc, like I'm pretty sure we are all aware those are trash fests but entertaining.

You know what people dont talk about enough how BAD cherry blossoms after winter is....... there I said it. That manhwa fills me up with an irrational amount of hatred just cause of how mediocre and boring it is.

Oh another thing, its hype has died down now but window beyond window......hated it. The reasons I hated it where a lot more for analytical reasons. Like the Mc lost his entire personality a quarter way through and it made me so mad because I felt like it had so much more potential.

I'm tired of typing now but I could go on

I've been thinking about it and just statistically speaking theres no way that all the couples and up together anyways.

Like the title says do you consider yourself a fujoshi or a fudanshi because I know of people who read yaoi but refuse to label themselves a fujo/Fudan because of the negative stigma surrounding the titles.