this might not be a full on yaoi but it damn sure is one of the best yaois i'm not even kidding lmaooo accept it already
idk is it because of me reading toxic shit and hating myself for so long THAT I HONESTLY CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND THE MECHANICS OF THIS HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP? like honestly this webtoon's got me dazed like an ideal fantasy, nowhere near real life. (〜°□°)〜
FUCK I WAS LITERALLY PRAYING FOR HARIBO A WEEK AGO TO COME BACK AND HERE IT IS JFKDKDJDJDDKKSLSLSSK I JUST CHOKED ON MY ALMONDJSJSJAMAJFJAKNFSFBOFSJLFSJ
i love it when authors don't leave us out and include a raunchy scene near the end or at the end THEY KNOW WE NEED OMG SOB SOB THANK YOU AUTHORS
wowe this author's storytelling gets better as you progress with the webtoon. i'm glad there was romance or else maybe it would have been difficult to digest it. then again, the romance part was pretty much a fantasy itself. irl people don't think about others so much as they did for each other. both their eyes are for each other, like i really felt that here. lmaoooo beautiful feelings beautiful scenes but what if may decided to not follow his heart instead? or what if jooin's yandere side resurfaced (most likely event)? okay not exactly yandere but definitely over-possessive. may took a big leap of faith to want to stay beside jooin, but just because you know and have seen the person, doesn't mean you know how he will act later on. oh but may did say that he can take care of himself, but how are you this reckless may, and considerate of others at the same time? what if you judged poorly? all i'm saying is that this webtoon has great potential to go south, get dark. that's what love does. throws you in for a surprise. reminds me of a saying: when you're seeing through rose colored glasses, all the red signs just look like signs. may tried hard to look at jooin, regardless of the fact that he was tied up and was held captive. maybe that's what saved them. and at the same time, he dealt with his emotions as well, didn't deny them. i'm probably exaggerating right now, but i'm kinda jealous of jooin for getting to get that beautiful gaze of may's on him. this webtoon made me tear up a bit because i know i won't ever be as lucky as them.
i'm gonna be honest i don't think i got anything :|
jun confuses me. where is his sense of justice? is the author trynna say he has accepted the malice inside of him? is that why he's so calm at the end? they were shitty people but it didn't even look like he felt bad for the victims because they honestly didn't deserve a death like that... is it because he's finally remembered his past and now trusts yeon woo and agreed to stay beside him that he doesn't need to care about anything
or anyone anymore? being a good person and feeling suffocated because of it isn't a bad thing :/ i'm not flaming jun tho, i just wanna ask jun if he feels bad even a bit. even if his acquired sense of justice and good human behavior was kinda fake he tried to pull just to fit in with society and be accepted, but then you still learn to be more human, even if you're acting.
so these questions were in my head because i was hella doubting jun here. or maybe i was doubting the author. jun confused me a little bit but then i realized that none of it was his fault. he just realized the next morning what really happened, last night and also during childhood that's all. he just realized. so even if he feels bad, it doesn't matter. the curse worked alright. and getting mad at yeon woo wouldn't really solve anything since yeon woo is a victim of this shit as well. i guess only the readers know that yeonwoo let the others get killed, even if their fates were being sealed under a curse. perhaps, i could blame yeonwoo a little bit. why do that yeonwoo, they're just people :| but then he's not a total bad person. he just had much more time and experience accepting and exploring 'malice', so def he's turned out odd, but not like the piece of shit i am.
but then they only left because they'll be under police investigation. should i dare to say they couldn't care less who else stumbles into that dark room
idk what author meant by finding a black room to hyun jo (that's the name right?) but i think the author is suggesting, probably to us, to find a completely dark room, and face our real selves, having nothing else but our true thoughts/opinions/desires and judge/act accordingly.
thank you author for slapping me in the face with some reality. i'll try to remember people see the world differently