somang's explanation to jaemin saddened me yet warmed my heart at the same time. the acceptance that it's not their fault that he's gone, but the realisation of all the tell-tale signs of his pain. their hug at the end was just so powerful. remember how they had started - it pained somang to look at jaemin before, and jaemin blamed her for his brother's death. but look at them now. this development is so important to me, and to those who have lost loved ones to suicide. it really shows that the healing process will come, after the rain.
Hamin had such a beautiful soul. im sobbing so hard right now - we've all known he's dead, but it's finally settled in. the way the author has beautifully translated the pain of losing someone and loving someone, I can't comprehend it. this is all too visceral, too real. this is such a beautifully sad story. he loved jaemin and somang so much, and to see the people he loved the most start to heal - he must be so proud, wherever he is.
and somang,,, I know she is inherently not a bad person, and i know she's definitely improved with age, but ?? reading this really reminded me to check up on my friends two of the closest people to her were crumbling and she barely realised :( it must've taken hamin's death for her to take the initiative and try to help gaeul fuck this is so realistic in the worst way possible JDJSJSJS there is no happy ending for the dead but i hope jaemin, somang and even seonhui heal from this
no...hamin was already at the edge of the slope and istg if that's what pushed him over the edge this is so painful, after the weakening of his relationship with Somang, Jaemin was all Hamin had,, and for him to hear those words from him :(( i don't even berate jaemin for it because he was simply being a kid, and if only Hamin had heard the rest of what he had to say...goddamnit i cant do this, no jaemin has new wounds to heal from I'M LOGGING OUT I CAN'T DO THIS
im so glad seonhui is somewhat getting closure as well :( her and jaemin are too interlinked regarding their pain, so I don't think a relationship is what they should pursue (that other guy tho seems like a pretty good candidate ) but a newly founded friendship, devoid of their feelings of guilt. one wherein they can now wholeheartedly support each other, without any lingering regrets