Today I screamed at a stranger. I feel awful. Today, was the first time I cussed at a cutomer service dispatcher. Her voice shakes every lines I threw at her. She sounds so inexperienced. I am so burdened during and mostly after the call. I feel awful to curse at someone and has to curse because of the built frustration I have dealt with this problem for days. And in no way, she has the full control of what is happening. I feel so afraid....that this feeling would lead me to feel depress cause I have depression. I easily break myself. Today was not entirely me, but I acknowledge how awful I am today. I hate myself. I hate what I am feeling right now and things that happened before it lead to this. How can I say sorry to a stranger I cant even call back.
Thats a lot of just walking panel ╥﹏╥