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Is the author gay??? It's like they got all the points 10/10!!!!! Especially that fear of liking guys.... That's actually a 100points for me.
Like, I also have a fear of liking guys who likes girls... of course, in reality, being "I'm only gay for you." is an absolute fantasy, so I don't go for straights at all... (even though a lot of gay guys actually tries it at some point)... what I fear is the Bisexuals... I don't know about other places, but where I live, being Bi is superbly common, or, it's more like, "they like girls, but hide that they also like guys." and that's where my prejudice towards Bis started... I understand that they, and I mean those people where I live, can't or scared to be open about it because of society's norms, but, that doesn't mean I don't get hurt whenever they hide it...
I even had one guy who I "hang out" with where I asked him if he ever had any intentions of dating... Lemme tell you this first, he was really kind and we really got along especially since our interest were superbly alike... and given our relationship, I thought he would make it official, once he gets the courage. even if he doesn't shout it to everyone, I would have been ok with it as long as he doesn't outright hide or deny it. I understand how scary it is to come out after all.
But when I asked if he has any interest in dating guys, he said he didn't and that he would marry a girl someday... I asked, then, are you gonna stop doing it with guys? He said no, he'll just do it behind closed doors... I was both appalled at how easy it is for him to say he'll cheat on his wife to be, and hurt that I started liking someone like him...
There was also that one husband of my cousin that she caught cheating... with a guy... on their very bed....
That's why, in my mind, it has stuck that, it might be impossible for them to be loyal to guys...
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I mean why cant a person be serious with one .is it too much to ask.
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I was having superbly good feelings. I was in cloud9 with all the cuteness and sweetness... I even superbly liked the characters coz they were not gullible or slow!!!! I really had a lot of good feelings... until that chapter 9....
It completely and utterly destroyed all those good vibes I was having. That fucking decision... Thank goodness Haruna said it, but I really wanna give Natsukawa one good punch... Just one.
Tsk.
I love the story, I really truly do... but I'm not in a good mood now... sigh... tsk.
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TAKE OFF YOUR EFFING CLOTHES!!! or at least the top's fricking pants.. Like seriously! xD
Also, I don't usually see it in yaoi's actually using the word Gay as a label. In fact, I could count in one hand the manga's I've read that actually use it. Usually, if they ever do, they just use Homo, or Homosexual, or if not it's like, "So you're like THAT... " or "He sees me THAT way huh..." ... Is it really hard to use Gay? xD It's just three letters. And, Bi is like non-existent. it's always, I'm just gay for you... Like, hello? Some people don't like labels yeah, but it does help for identification xD Hahahaha
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I know... I may not be superbly knowledgeable bout Japanese culture, but I'm aware that they are very traditional and conservative...(Mostly coz of reading and watching manga and anime xD hahahahah)
I'm just wondering, when they'll finally change... I do believe that being conservative is good, but a little open is also good... Balance, I guess. xD
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S. Korea is far ahead in the game so you'll probably see it in a Korean Webtoon before anything else. Japanese manga is still pretending like bisexuals don't exist half the time. Meanwhile webtoons include asexuals. Of course, in non-BL LGBT Japanese manga, there's a diversity of people. But I find it nice that for S.K. even BL acknowledges diversity.
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There's Spoiler here, Warning!!!!!!!
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I love this. Especially Kashiwagi's complex about coming out? That's actually real and it seems like the author understands it as well... Also, the way he acted in the phone break up??? That's definitely how we'd react if a closeted guy suddenly wants to stop the relationship, especially if before hand said guy was acting as if they weren't in a relationship.
I understand the position of gay people in the closet, I was also inside it before, but also know that it's painful superbly painful.
I've never been teased before.... and I don't think I'll ever want to be again zfter this.... Damn it!!!! T^T