beta
From the raw i think author did such a good job on depicting when 2 people with mentally unstable fallen in love (toxic relationship), like forgiving and then hating each other the next day or couple hours, it keeps going in circle cuz they both triggering each other yet cannot escape cuz they both craving for loving and obssesing each other. they both has abondenment issues and more. Like mc keep falling into ML cuz ML keep guilt tripping the mc and keep spouting sweet words (the mc really craving for love), 20+ chapter just them going around and around and much worse when the mc confront his parents about the shaddy cult, and make his trauma and his mentally unstable gone worse like so sensitive and easily get trigger.
It is frustrating to read but thats the reality and the angst of mentally unstable love story.
It's weird if the mc can fix ml's mentally ill or vice versa in such a short amount of time. And at the end of the raw chapter (there is still more chapter to come) mc prob wanted a space between them (prob until ML can be in the right mind and progressing his mental health and prob fot he mc too so he can be mpre focusing on his career and his mental health cuz i see him going into psychiatrist(?)). So thats way when the ml asked and kneeled for forgiveness and ready to take punishment and his punishment is to keep on living (well cuz we know from the start he doesnt have a will to live, so mc thought if he doesnt getting better then this world would be still like hell and the mc doesnt have to worried that he will kill himself cuz he prob still love him). By the end ML, i guess, waiting to meet him so he went and wait outside of the theater mc work on and caught mc by suprise when mc got anxiety attack and almost fall on the stair so ml caught him by the hand and i think ML looks better than before.
I dont know if they both at least got better and then trying again to built healthy relationship, but i really hope so ╮(￣▽￣)╭