maturing is realizing that even if im kind to everyone and let ppl walk over me they won’t always be kind to me in return
maturing is realizing that your mental illnesses will never disappear even if you try to deep down tell yourself everything’s fine 1 reply
y'all please i need an advice asap. so basically i have a friend who did me dirty so many times like 4years ago but i was too dependent on her so i couldn't let go of her. then time passed and in 2022 i decided to stop being friends w her. eventually i texted her in late 2022 and we've been friends again since then, BUT. i met a guy who i kinda like and we've been talking for more than a year now, and i've been telling my friend about him every time we call. 2 weeks ago we were talking about him and she asked me if she could follow him, i said yes (i shouldn't have clearly) and then 2 days ago i saw MY BOY FRIEND IN OUR DC GROUP! so i was like what???? and my friend added him wo me knowing. ( there's like 1000 pics of me bad pics essentially !!!!) so i called our dc grp and he also joined. we talked a lot etc and then after like 3hours, my friend showed us her ancient insta post and stories. (js so u know since i could see her insta and her conv i literally saw my boy friend in her last conv so it means they've been talking wo me knowing ). so she showed us and i was like girl no please don't there's photos of me and i'm really insecure. she didn't care and started to show everyone in the go photos of me from a year ago or things she put in her private insta story. i started sobbing and crying so hard and went quiet. then she stopped and they were like « are u ok? what's wrong » GIRL U SRS? she literally humiliated me in front of my boy friend but ok. and hahahah
wait that's not the worst part. she asked him if he wanted to play w her and they played for hours together just them. i hung up and cried myself to sleep. since then i've been distancing myself from him and everyone cuz i know it's over and he's gonna chose her now. well.. i was right. today i was on insta and oh! i saw her insta private story, she added him. he also added her in his. and ??? she posted some conv w him in her story, and photos of them playing games. he also did the same. am i tripping????? so i started crying and texted her « wtf?? » then she's like « what » and i said « nvm » and she replied « do u like him? » LIKE GIRL
anyways sorry for yapping but idk what to do should i just distance myself from everyone block her block him? idk and js so u know i also met a guy in 2020 was OBSSESED w him for 3 years and they flirted and called each other for a whole year while i still liked him. he unfollowed me but he's still following her, he also said « i wanna see u » and she replied « me and seabi? » and he said « what? no just you » like …. can you NOT steal my friends ? especially my boy friends please. these are the only 2 boys i’ve ever talked w. and she stole them both. js to let u know, she has so many friends and so many boy friends, but no she HAS to talk to my friend ofc right. i hate myself
guys having a narcissistic mother is HELL. pure fucking hell she makes me want to kms every damn day leave me the fuck alone it’s so tiring i cry everyday bc of her i know lots of you won’t understand what i’m saying but she’s eating my mental health like crazy. always victimizing herself, yelling at me for things that i did not do or just saying she’s gonna khs every time i say something. she created my an ed and now this ??? istg i’m living in hell
did being awake for far too long
