
He's suffocated by the financial dependence, and there's anger at a societal system that pretty much only benefits the already rich and keeps the rich richer. The access to good schooling. Technology, food, clean safe homes. The more he plays into model behaviour, it kinda feels like whoring yourself out for material gifts. Logically, nobody will like someone who isn't nice or reward morally bad behaviour. But rmb he's an omega, so he's facing a lot of sex-based discrimination and harassment. He's been receiving unfair treatment already for his best behaviour. It just feels like a shitty deal of a life all around, I understand why he'd want to rebel against the system and act out, and why he has a lot of resentment. Bc realistically he can't win in life without hand downs from upper class, purely bc of the cards he was born with.
Ofc he's upset being born in poverty and violence and with no support system. Having rich patrons only emphasises the conditional nature of his relationships. When u grow up alone just wishing for unconditional love bc u didn't get that from ur parents or ur childhood/home life was unstable, that's like massively triggering.
And to see a child born of privilege, who hasn't ever rlly suffered. Your hatred for the system transfers to the objects that benefit from the system. They say "don't shoot the messenger". But if you can't change or fight the system, the only thing that u can affect is what's literally closest to you: people.
And this kid is the only one who loves him purely. It's ridiculous and ironic. It would feel like giving in to the system to accept his love and even feeding in to the system to love the kid back. Do yall get it?
There's no justifying him trying to kill yeon seo. But his feelings and the way he was is understandable to me. I hope yall can empathise w someone who has been thru so much. The violent anger from this kind of specific circumstances is rlly like nothing else.
Esp from a kid who was kind thruout. He cared for his grandma. If yall have relatives w dementia or have been carers, if uk uk. He's obeyed his absent violent dad. He has been kind to yeon seo and cared for him, despite his conflicted feelings.
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