Never have I ever related so much with a character before like hira-kun right here, I was like him when I had my first love, everything about them seemed so moving to me it was unexplainable, everything about them captivated me, even simply just staring far. It's been almost 2 years and I doubt I have loss any feelings for him. After we broke up, I dated this other dude who liked me but it was also similar to the MC's relationship with the college dude, I did like him but only as a friend so I had to end it. I still imagine if only we didn't broke things off and continued.