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Im a hardcore fudanshi but i want to explore more of the world of straightness but it seems the possibility of me getting interested in that is low ╥﹏╥ im straight himself i still like girls and i never been into relationships before cause my family are strict(not that i hate tho) but guys cuddling each other are still the best in my heart..... I have this one girl i like and ofc i confessed for the first time to her and i give all my heart to her and got rejected ╥﹏╥ also when i was a little i have complex where people thought me as a girl and my mum loves to dress me as a girl and it affects my love life and some people really thought im gay ╥﹏╥
Some people stay away from me cause they thought im swing that way and some people approach me cause they have ulterior motives. I started to be friends with girl in my class so i can take a gist of how to have gf and asked how they opinion or how to win a girls heart but they misunderstand me being so girly and not masculine like tf ╥﹏╥ then i started be friends with guys in my class so ofc they thought me approach them cause i like them but i 100% DONT. I change the way i dressed i change the way i talk i change the my attitude.... My family are religious and strict so they always keep my manner in check and some people thought im different from other boys that i always polite and respect elders, i dont show my face that often to people and they call me a maiden and innocent cause i didn't act wild like other boys would do in this age... I dont like sports and i prefer an indoor activity cause my health not that great since i was little and they used that as excuse for me being girly and gay.....
Sometimes my mum also suspected me being gay and ofc it hurts by my siblings are okay with what i do which is i so grateful.... My life is a mess and this thing keep making me anxious to communicate with society. I honestly don't know what to do everything i do people keep judging me.... And i always be the one who comfort not the one who been comfort
Oh i talked to much im sorry but this is the only platform that i can opened up to cause people dont know meactually i just wanna ask if there's still possibility that i can enjoy straight stuff.... But it came where else....