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first read of the year and oh well.. how am i supposed to find something at least as good as this to keep going with 2025 now?? this was so relatable. i laughed, dreaded and FEELED so strongly for those two leads. the topics addressed are quite deep, a rough reminder that everybody don’t get the same chances in life and how it can leave irremediable damages no matter how hard you fight.
it is about how to live with the consequences of your actions having harm the person you like the most. it was hard to see MC deal with this painful guilt and the fact that his world and self esteem were brutally being shattered by his own decisions. it made it even more cruel that said decision had been made at a time where he didn’t even know the person he was harming, and that he ended up falling in love with. and at such a young age at that, when you have no idea the extent of your actions can be devastating.
as for ML, his insecurities and flaws were difficult to put up with as they were so relatable. the lake of self confidence, the way he was always comparing himself to MC, ending up with a huge complex that made him feel, in my opinion, a perfect blend of admiration and despite. but the most dreadful part for me was the way he apprehended life, a life that had convinced him no good could happened to him without a price so heavy it would necessarily destroy him, making him incapable of embrace happiness when it was right in front of him. i could literally see myself.
my only concerns are for the ending, which is a bit frustrating to me, and the second couple. I get that it has his utility but the way they end up together feels random.
to finish on a good note, because it was overall a really interesting reading, i will try to remember the powerful message that the mother of MC left at the end : no such thing as a « good moment » to start something exists in life. if you stop yourself from doing something you want to do thinking « it’s not the right time », then you’ll never do nothing.