Have you guys ever heard about the theory that we're attracted to people who resemble our parents? (I think the reasoning behind that has to do something with how parents are the first people we love..)
Anyways, I was wondering if kinks are similar because I think the reason I have a force feeding kink has something to do with how when I was younger my mom used to force me to take... things that may or may not have been legal lol. I'm actually starting to wonder if all of my awful kinks (such as noncon, manhandling, manipulation, dangerously possessive behavior, threats, forcefully confining one to a room, noncon drug use, etc. the list goes on D':) originate from my childhood experiences?
Or maybe my kinks for extreme things might be a result of being introduced to sex and drugs at a very young age (courtesy one very dead mother) or a result of being raised by a forgetful to the point of neglectful drug addicted mother who rapidly switched from spoiling me rotten and showering me with very physical affection to angrily telling me to practice swallowing water when I couldn't swallow a (mysterious, hopefully not illegal) pill to silently vomiting blood in the toilet as i sat next to her eating toilet paper. So now I think I crave someone who loves me so much they'd (tie me up) never abandon me, is physically dominant, manipulative in a sweet way, and generally just a very bad person overall who has no qualms about hurting me. Don't know why I want a bad person but I do know I'd really want to forgive them so long as they love me.
Sorry if this doesn't really make sense, I myself am struggling to make sense of what's going on in my head lol. But if anyone else has any thoughts or comments about this I'd love to hear it! (=・ω・=)
yes yes i really agree that childhood trauma, or anything related to childhood tbh, does contribute a lot to developing kinks. even being lightly exposed to those things at a young age (like simply just watching them) can make people develop them as they grow older, so ofc when you're exposed directly and physically (like those things you describe) you'll develop them as well. i hope this makes sense.
This isn't on hiatus is it?! The last chapter was uploaded in November of 2019 and it's already 2021 now. D':
It finished that’s the end