beta
I know that he was suffering through depression, but he gave someone love and treated her with so much false adoration only to find her repulsive. As much as you are struggling, please don't drag others down with you. He gave her so much hope and so much praise even though he never meant a single word of it. He could've lived on a few years and eventually killing himself affecting those who were already around him, but he instead made that woman reliant on his love to the point she probably has trauma about it years on. From the way he acts, it was evident that he was already planning on killing himself because he thinks he's a "cockroach" so why pretend to love her and take her with you? She loved you so sincerely yet you thought of another woman whilst beside her, that's really fucked up man