
these spoilers include description of rape/SA please kindly leave if these subjects disturb you in any way.
brief recap + info:
some of yall might of guessed it: its the 2nd life of both mc and ml.
ML remembers everything except MC doesnt at all, although he has nightmares of his first life.
to add: I noticed manhwa chaps and novels chaps r almost the same (ex: ch 1 manhwa = ch 1 novel)
ok lets start; (im only talking about important details)
When does the 1st life storytime start?: around chaps 72-73
Whats happening after ch 41 in the manhwa? (upcoming updates):
MC learns about how to make perfume for a few chaps. ML offers MC a whole new perfume company for him under his own name: Sejin, and decides to make MC the ceo of the company. MC meets the employees, have dinner w them, etc.. (theres gonna be 1 sex scene after the dinner w the employees) MC receives the news that his father has been arrested for tax invasion and so on. MC realized that it was ML's doing that his family/haeshin coop. was going down. MC felt devasted bc it was his family but ML did it because MC was being mistreated w his own family and gaslighted by his dad to keep working for him so for MC's sake he exposed them. ML got help from MC's secretary btw. ML's precise reasoning: “In my eyes, they were abusers, but to you, they were the only family you had.”
1-2 chaps later, they have sex again but this time MC asked ML to imprint him since ML was the only one left for MC after the whole family situation, but at the end ML didnt imprint him. MC kind of displeased by this situation, stopped sleeping in ML's room and even kind of stopped talking to him bc ML was the one who cut ties w mc's family and now he was alone but ML refused to imprint him? After a f ew talks, they started talking A BIT ONLY again. ML's grandfather died and his brother also disappeared. MC decided to join the funeral with ML since he wanted to fix things at the same time after what happened w the imprinting situation. (btw this funeral is like 2 days long or smt) During a meal, while they were drinking, ML told MC about his side and how he felt and how he liked MC and he didnt want this to be a contracted marriage and also that MC should be the one to decide if they should date or not. Basically he didnt want to force MC to date him or to be in any forced relationship and do whatever was right for MC. After all that and when they came back home, ML got his rut and they almost had sex. ML ate sleeping pills + inhibitors and said this before he went to sleep: “… … You died before my eyes.” which made MC obviously confused. After that rut, ML decame awfully distant with MC BUT at the same time, MC started opening up abt his insomnia and other issues. Later on, MC finally launched his perfume company but ML never showed up to the opening ceremony. ML started avoiding MC by coming home late often too. Until one day ML told MC to end the marriage and that MC should leave whenever he wanted to. MC was completely dumbfounded and confused bc ML said a few days earlier how he liked him but now he said to leave? He felt betrayed. MC hurried to the study where ML was mid way through packinh/ getting ready to leave, and yells at ML how wrong he was to say that and why he said that. He questionned everything and finally yells ''do u think ill die infront of you?'' (MC doesnt know the context and just repeated what ML said during his rut out of anger) and starts yelling even more and questionned how weird it was for ML to get his heat cycles right everytime and every odd coincidence and if he was ever honest w him. He felt like a pet and an object: he was taken care of but he didnt know anything abt ML at all. ML felt like he didnt hv the right to date MC bc of what hes done (view 2nd paragraph) thats why he wanted MC to leave him (this was not mentionned btw) MC begged ML to let him stay w him and ML finally gave him and they had sex and he finally imprinted him: 1st life memories came flooded in in MC's mind. - 1st life storyline starts-
1st life summary: starts with storytime of MC and how he was adopted by his current father: MC left his abusive parents and clinged on a random rich person which happened to be Haeshin's CEO aka his adoptive dad. MC was later arranged a marriage with ML. ML did not really give a fuck about MC at all tbh: he was awfully dry and only thought of it as a contract. During MC's first heat, he just kinda ignored him, 2ND heat they fucked bc MC asked him to, but keep it mind ML was awfully rude/rough in bed (legit no foreplay+he bled) Later on, both MC and ML started being kind to eachother: they would eat together, greet eachother in the mornings, etc.. MC was FRAMED by his whole family for tax invasion and was sent to prison but luckily ML bought him out of it. Basically MC's family used him so Haeshin company would not get caught in those problems. Basically after he got out of prison, bc of ML, his family totally cut him off. !!! MC was asked to steal a document in Ml's study which MC obviously did for his father way before he was framed by his family since father was like yk how i raised u blah blah.
This sadly was the reason both MC and ML grew apart. While MC and ML were starting to like each other and even having comforting sex, ML felt absolutely betrayed by MC for not being honest earlier about stealing the files and MC couldve even come up with a reason and straihht up told ML he stole it for his own good. ML started ignoring MC around house and it detoriated MC's mental/physical health since he craved love and attention; he starved himself too. One day ML came home drunk and MC begged on his knees to not ignore him and give him another chance and how hed do ANYTHING for ML to forgive him (MC's family alr left him so if ML leaves him, he'll be all alone and he was scared of that) ML forcefully made MC to blowjob him and even told him to act like a prostitute if he wanted to be forgiven. MC throat was swelled up for a few days due to this incident. Meanwhile ML was at a funeral, MC went into heat again but this time ML's brother also randomly came and RAPED the shit out of MC (ch 86) it was disturbely written. MC who got so fucked up after the rape, called his secretary and asked him to pick him up to leave cause he was finally done w this place. ML went to MC's house and noticed how bruised MC looked like and demanded who did that to him, but obviously MC being fed up with the whole situation just told ML he slept w his brother (didnt say it was rape at all) ML being mad, he rapes MC and forcefully imprints him w pain (ugh it was so hard to read that part). Later on, the Moment where MC wakes up from all the sex w ML, hes been brought to ML's mansion again. THIS time he was confined: he can only sleep in ML's bed and if he wanted to leave to another room, he needed his bodyguard to follow him. (its been several months from the raping incident too) MC would starve himself and just felt depressed the whole time. Until the doctor told him he was pregnant: MC didnt know whos child it was; ML's or ML's brother. MC finally had enough and didnt want to give birth to a successor, he went to ML's study and kills himself.
after imprint (2nd life/present): MC still decided to leave ML. ''If you were going to let me know about such painful emotions, you shouldn't have imprinted on me. If you knew that emotions are so contagious, you should have been a little more careful.'' and ended the marriage and left w a suitcase. 3 months have passed and ML decides tomake a random contract/proejct in order to meet w MC bc he missed him dearly. Bc of the contract between MC’s perfume company and ML’s company, they met up every single day in MC’s office (ML wanted to do this for 3 weeks straight since he missed MC sm). After their contract/project which took like a week or so, ML and MC left together and had sex after a company dinner. They had sex bc MC’s heat and ML’s rut aligned bc they eere both imprinted/bonded whatever u call it
OK I ONLY READ TILL 92 SORRY POOKIES! ill update when i finish the novel:3
sorry for bad english btw ( ̄へ ̄)i mostly speak french
ANYWAYS please lmk any questions or precisions in my answer:3
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'East Kalak' is a thousand-year-old natural fortress, surrounded on all sides. It is a harsh place where sandstorms in winter leave you trapped.
For a thousand years, they believed that the Great Canyon in the East would protect 'Kalak', but Slann had a plan to build a bridge across the Great Canyon to open 'Eastern Kalak' and create an abundant 'Kalak' by interacting with the rich south. (Chapter 14)
Slan lost his comrades who shared that dream three years ago, and on the night everything happened, Slan went out to fight, and even sent Ismion to Lyod telling him that he was okay.
Slan went to meet the knights and the general. The general entered the Kalak castle with his private soldiers, and Lister of Glendberg, who was guarding the castle this day, turned a blind eye to it.
His aunt, Princess Helen, and the General joined hands to poison Slann, kill his father and mother, and even kill his uncle, Prince Kalak.
After drinking poison and becoming mad, he made Slan a slave who lost his wits... After all this happened, six days later, Lyod who had been besieging Kalak Castle, was able to enter, but he met Princess Helen, Slan's aunt, and found out that she had planned the whole conspiracy.
When Lyod asked to save Slan's life, who has lost his wits and does not recognize himself, Slan's aunt cites the old Kalak saying, "A life for a life..." and demand that he cut off Slan's arm, saying, "For a knight, the left arm is more important than his life."
Lyod cut off his arm without a second of hesitation.
Seeing Slan naked and imprisoned in Helga's Tower, Lisbeth told Lyod that she would take care of Slann and find a cure, and told him to go and resolve the Alto Civil War in the Northwest that had been an headache for 20 years.
Ismion knew that as knight, Lyod, losing his left arm was like losing his life, so he gave him the arm of a demon.
Lisbeth, knowing that her younger brother Lister, a knight of the royal court, had turned a blind eye to the General bringing in his private army, buried Lister's story for the sake of her family and kept it a secret.
After spending hellish days, Lyod returned and finally met Slan in the ruined corridor...
Slan regained his memories by taking the medicine given to him by Ismion, and begins a war to reclaim the city of Kalak.
Lister, who came to find Slan on the battlefield and asked him to return to Glenberg. Lister said he loves him.
After hearing Lister's confession that he had betrayed, abused, insulted, and made him miserable, Slann is furious, wondering if all of this can be forgiven simply by saying that he loved him.
Lyold, who appeared through the coin that Slan flipped, kills Lister, and Slann asks Ismion to make a poison similar to the one that caused his madness, and he poisons his aunt who is sitting on the throne, then drags her to the 'Tower of Helga' where she dropped him and his mother, killed her and pushes her to death.
Lyord is carrying out a large-scale purge.
Slann is busy cleaning up the aftermath of the war...
kiss, the burning sword, the bridge of Mannerheim, the esophagus-burning poison, the desolate land and the sandstorm, the overflowing waters of the Kövisto River, all these things melted together and became tangled, so that nothing mattered.
2024-11-18 01:24 marked
2024-08-17 14:25 marked

You guys will have to machine translate it. But it’s actually readable compared to other Korean BL novels. You guys can skip the spoilers down below if you are planning to read the novel.
So, the ML becomes the most humble guy in the current timeline. MC is “always first” in his book now. ML loves the MC a lot and regrets what happen in the past/1st timeline.
This is just the basic main points of the current timeline.
- ML likes kids but doesn’t want them because MC was pregnant with their kid before MC commited suicide. He believe he doesn’t deserve it after what happen.
- MC likes to read at the greenhouse and the ML allows him the freedom to do so
- One day MC goes to ML’s study and sees ML holding a gun. ML says the gun has no bullets. And MC asks why he has it as it is illegal. ML says grandpa gives it to him as a gift. ML also says something along the lines of the gun being using for something he regrets I think?
- ML hires a bodyguard for him, and this bodyguard use to be the captain of the ML’s defense team, but due to scandals caused by jealousy from his colleagues, he was fired (thus ML gave him a second chance; this is why don’t judge a book by its cover guys!! ML isn’t a bad person, just a human who made mistakes)
- MC and bodyguard were not on good terms at first but overtime they become good friends
- MC enters his first heat in the greenhouse one day, and not surprisingly ML shows up
- they do the snu snu, and ML was super super gentle and considerate of the MC (in comparison with the past timeline where the ML was rough with the MC)
- MC and ML attend the grandfather’s birthday of ML’s side and they meet rapist (ML’s brother)
- ML brother purposfully spills wine on MC, and offers to help. MC being a doormat (ugh) he follows him to the restroom where the rapist tries to rape MC.
- bodyguard informs ML, and ML comes to the rescue and bears the shit out of MC
- fast forward >>>> the same scenario happens where the stolen document case appears again
- MC is very hesitant, but still steals the document in the end. MC goes into estrus and ML shows up again. ML and MC does snu-snu once more.
- when MC wakes up, ML is holding the document in his hands. MC is in shock, but I believe ML doesn’t do anything and even gives him a USB. ML asks of the MC to take the USB to the ML’s secretary for him.
- MC in the end doesn’t give the document in the end nor even tamper with the USB. MC does get bitch slap by his shitty father though for failing.
-MC tries to go to his apartment to avoid ML seeing him, but ML is standing outside of his apartment complex with an umbrella. ML asks what happen, and MC says he fell. ML doesn’t speak further but comforts MC. Later on, ML harasses the shitty father 10 fold I believe.
- Fast forward >>>> ML suggests MC to do perfuming, to give him something to do in the future and to fulfill Mc’s dream. ML hires a teacher and MC learns how to become a perfumist.
- MC wants to make a perfume of his pheromones to give to the ML. And to make a perfume of ML’s pheromones for himself.
- ML then gives a company to the MC that has to do with perfumes. All the rights are handed over to MC and ML is just the investor.
- MC then questions ML why he keeps giving him things, and why he is so considerate and nice. ML just says he wants to gain a favor from the MC.
- fast forward >>>>> ML grandpa dies and ML’s brother goes missing. ML brother was deemed dead due to drowning (ofc ML killed him). Furthermore, MC’s father and other corrupt company members are arrested for fraud and embezzlement of company funds. MC has nothing to do with this as he did resign from his post in the beginning.
- ML asks MC for a dinner date. MC is nervous but says okay. ML says he wants to break the engagement and wants MC to freely do what he wants to do. MC is very upset after this.
- MC goes home and packs his things angrily. And then stops and storms into ML’s study where he sees Ml holding the “same” gun that was used in the past timeline
-MC says he doesn’t want to break up with the ML and asks why he was so nice to him in the first place if he was gonna leave him in the end!? MC and ML argue for a bit, MC says something and tried to leave and ML grabs him. They have angry snu-snu (not rape). ML permanently marks him and this is when MC remembers the past timeline
- the mark gave him back his memories, and is why ML tries to avoid marking MC
-MC leaves in the end, and ML let’s him
- MC and ML don’t meet for awhile, until MC meets him at the perfume company as business partners
-MC has not forgiven ML and tries to shoo him away, ML keeps coming back (yeah it’s chasing the wife scenario)
- fast forward >>> on the last day they meet up one more time, where MC forgives ML and ML cries like a bitch. (Honestly this was very adorable though) ML keeps crying as MC asks them to be lovers again.
- also if MC decided not to forgive ML, ML was planning to kill himself. MC reprimanded after they got back together tho.
-they have makeup sex and live happily ever after.
-extras are just the POV of the ML.
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So after reading the novel, I’ve come to the conclusion the ML is actually not a bad person. This story is another case of “misunderstandings”. Sigh…MC is a doormat and the ML is too arrogant and prideful in the first timeline.
Here are the Main Points of the storyline:
- MC has these nightmares where he dreams of being “raped” which actually happened in the 1st timeline. This was mainly caused by the ML’s brother.
- MC is someone who longs for familial love, and makes decisions that is questionable and quite frustrating to me
- ML is arrogant and only marries the MC in the first timeline because he wants to absorb the company that belongs to MC’s family
(1st timeline)
- MC and ML actually get married! It was on the news outlets and was announced to the public. ML is a fucking asshole here tho, making demands out of the MC before the wedding.
- MC and ML arrive home after the wedding where they do not consummate the wedding. The ML tells MC, “your room is in the corner over there.” The room is small and not big as what you have expect from a rich conglomerate’s house. MC just smiles and thanks ML
- fast forward, MC is in estrus. ML thinks MC is trying to take advantage of him. By the way, only during estrus will MC actually release pheromones that you can smell. MC is also immune to suppressors. But ML doesn’t know that and forcible gets his workers to give him surpressors. MC suffers a bit for two days. MC gets his estrus every month as he is a dominant omega and has been suffering from this considition for quite awhile
- MC avoids ML like a ghost, until the ML gets fed up and says stop avoiding him
- MC then receives a call from his shitty dad and meets up with him at the company. Shitty dad wants MC to steal an important document that has something to do the system coding that ML has been working on. MC is distraught at betraying ML or betraying the family that took him in
- he steals the document when the ML was away, but gets struck by his heat again, this time ML arrived and they do the snu-snu but no permanent mark
- later on the document gets given to his father
- MC and ML’s relationship gets better after that
- However, when MC was going to work at his company, his fuckin family (his shitty ass father) threw him under the bus and he gets arrested and frame to extorting funds from the company
- MC’s long time secretary begs ML to save him by bailing him out (they reach a deal where the secretary reveals all the secrets of what the shitty dad did in his company)
- ML arrived and picks up the MC
- shit happens, as the new program is launched by MC’s family company. It used the stolen coding that the MC stole.
- ML is furious as MC stands inside his study, distraught, sad, and grieving. (He’s not crying btw, just sad that he got betrayed by the monsters he thought were family)
- ML asks if he has any excuses for the shit he pulled, MC says he done it out of his on volition
- ML asks twice, as if giving him a chance to redeem himself. MC does not come up with excuses. ML storms off saying “you will regret it”.
- Fast forward, MC is on house arrest and then enters estrus
- MC suffers for a bit until the door opens. He thinks it’s the ML, but it’s the fucking ML’s brother. ML’s brother rapes MC, while MC resists. It’s when the brother states, “Wow, this is the gift that your husband prepared for me, thanks, it’s much appreciated.” MC thinks ML abandoned him to this rapist because of this comment by the rapist and eventually gives up retaliating. :(
- afterwards, MC runs away to his safe haven, his old apartment with the help of his secretary
- MC takes sleeping pills and tries to sleep away his worries (or traumatic incident that occurred)
- ML comes and accuses him of killing himself with this many sleeping pills. And asks why the fuck he ran away. And why he smelt of his brother.
- MC calmly asks for divorce and says yeah, he fucked the Ml’s brother (as a fuck you moment kinda thing)
-things escalated and ML forcibly permanently marks MC though (snu-snu and yeah this is part is rape, it’s forced sex) which causes MC to lose consciousness
- MC is again on house arrest and suffers from neglect
- ML never shows up for awhile and MC suffers from not having his mate there for his estrus and heats
- MC also suffers from night terrors and nightmares from the rape incident caused by ML’s brother
- This causes him to sometimes be unable to distinguish if ML was the one who actually raped him. He mixes the two up and this causes him to fear the ML
- MC decides, to go to ML’s study, where he sees the gun mounted on the wall. The gun was a gift from the ML’s grandpa and symbolizes the strength to move forward and finish what has been started (something along those lines.) He decides to “move forward” by shooting himself in the chest
- ML arrives just about when he pulls the trigger, MC sees him one last time and wishes him to live happily, smiling, and then *BANG*
- ML screams saying “NO!”
- MC dies.
okay here are some important things to note:
- the document that MC stole has many errors in the coding, thus later on MC’s company will fall and end up bankrupt anyways, MC did this on purpose
-ML finds out about this because after the permanent mark allows both alpha and omega to share memories as well as feelings and thoughts
- ML finds out about MC’s involvement about the stealing codes and how the coding system failed through this very concept (the permanent mark)
- ML avoids MC because MC was afraid of the ML, he didn’t want to hurt MC anymore because of the feelings transmitted from the permanent mark (but this ends up as neglect in MC’s eyes)
- I believe the ML also imprison MC because he was most likely afraid MC would, well…off himself. Or other reasons as Ml’s controlling ass nature :). It’s probably a mix of the two.
-One last thing I will reiterate, ML is not a “red” flag, his actions; however, are what I considered “red-flag” actions BECAUSE the situation spiraled so out of control that it caused the ML to act the way he did. I hope I’m getting this to you all.
(If I had a significant other from an arrange business marriage whom didn’t confide in me at all and chooses to take the “self-blaming” way out…yeah I can see why the ML acted that way he did.)
ML will show traits he always had in the 2nd/current timeline. He is more calm, assertive, attentive, and caring. But that’s after ML has realized he actually loves the MC so much. It’s just that the MC and ML relationship didn’t start out as ordinary lovers.
Okay that’s all. I’m tired. Will update on current story line which takes up like 75% of the story.
2024-05-08 00:21 marked

Volume One: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1jRegsY2waPn3zt43nm-piAn1YTmyYhWF52U8hJHndNY
Volume Two: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1vI5Nv2Lo_0qOFmUk6pXY7mZ47TshylZap7KVGVShbjE
Volume Three: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1x2BmVvuW8cQ7MitN2AVn9aD5Ea4nbDJzbOH8km_E0uI
Volume Four: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1flFKDLiOYhxFAK0D9yZROpBClePbZj_g1mSDqWcRkBM
Volume Five - Side Story: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1TbuXjtJjyp85oOxE2-0r85G9EJ4CcBmaOdsrDByjw3s
Here you go!
If you want to read beginning on where the chapter in the manga adaptation left on go to volume 2 specifically in the part “2.8”
2024-04-11 23:31 marked

[IF YOU DONT WANT SPOILER DONT EXPAND OR SCROLL DOWN] this is gonna be a long ass spoiler since it's up to end
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How he became lord Skar
- when Karel became a captain in military. He got caught by enemy troop (France) and he got the scars from the dogs and torture he got from enemy base.
He didn't care if he died but he wanted to see Sasha again so he can't die, He then told them he could be their men. So he became a spy for France, hence he got a new name Skar.
Who is George?
- karel is a double spy (Austria and France) when he was a spy for France, George disguised himself to talk to Karel to pass Austria's message to him. Karel told him if George goes back to Austria after delivering the message, George would die. George knew this but he wanted to see his old captain once more so he agreed to be the messenger. To protect George, Karel became double spy (so he is a spy for both France and Austria now). After that he hid George by putting him as his secretary.
Does he still love Sasha?
- When he made it out alive after the torture he got from enemy base, the first thing he does was to go to one of Sasha's show. He didn't have money so he just waited at the back exit along with other fans. He saw Sasha there, Sasha has a lot of fans so Karel waved and called his name but Sasha didn't see him, that's when he realize Sasha was far now. So when he became Skar he expanded the metal and shipment business (it was also his disguise) using France military fund and he also wanted to do entertainment business because that's where Sasha is.
Are the rumors about Skar true?
- he didn't sleep with anyone. He wanted to join the sponsors club, so he would organize this sexual shows to pleased the nobles. His shows were also pretty sadistic so that where the rumors came that lord Skar has a particular taste when it comes to sex.
This is now spoilers about the novel by order
- Sasha and Skar entered a sponsor relationship. Skar treating him badly was due to Karel believing that if he was soft to Sasha like before, Sasha would leave him like before.
- Misunderstanding about Sasha sleeping around was solved after gudin's incident. Sasha didn't sleep with anyone (as he claims idk in the manhwa) at this point Sasha was desperate for karel's validation and hoping that their relationship would go back to what it was before so he does everything Skar tells him to do even if he hates it. Karel would do some sadistic shits (not much but Sasha doesn't like them) then become gentle af after then becomes cold after, he intentionally does this, cause he thinks if he shows his love fully Sasha would leave him.
- George misunderstood that Sasha's baby is biologically Sasha's and the nanny's. He thinks Sasha has a wife, he reports this to Karel in which became another misunderstanding
- Karel then asked Sasha to live with him, so Sasha lives with Karel and is barely showing in his practices which made his manager mad at him.
- after several loving house scene Karel became less and less showing in his house. Karel is engage to madame Rambullet (wrong spelling I know but you know her). This is for his escape and to make the France military lower his guard.
- Karel went to Sasha's house. Believing that the housekeeper is Sasha's wife he asked her to keep Sasha safe and thanks her for being with Sasha. housekeeper was confused but agrees
- Karel Threw Sasha out from his house and dissolves their relationship, Sasha also found out that he is marrying Rambullet, so Sasha became addicted to drugs again, when he went to back alley opium club, he saw Karel walking in the street, he then chased and begged Karel but Karel was cold to him and just left him in the street (Sasha is a celebrity and there were many people in the street so this was featured in newspapers)
- Sasha's housekeeper became worried for Sasha so she sent a letter to Julian (since it's the only person Sasha send letters to) so Julian worried for Sasha he came to visit him. Sasha told him about Skar, Julian then takes care of Sasha.
- George become unemployed by Karel so he goes to Sasha's place cause he has no more place to go to. (Actually he wasn't, he was ordered to keep an eye of Sasha)
-sasha became less addicted to opium and requested Julian to take him to karel's wedding cause he wanted to see. Julian was scared that Sasha would make a scene but granted Sasha's wish anyways and sneak in with Sasha in karel's wedding.
- after the wedding Sasha tries to pick his life again with the support of nanny, Julian, George and Charles. Later Karel and Rambullet went to travel for honeymoon. Karel already told Rambullet that he only got married to Rambullet so that he could escape his spy life, Rambullet agreed cause she's hopelessly in love with Karel, so yeah the marriage ain't real.
- France has a political problem and they outed that Skar is spy to save their asses, so they plan on arresting him when he comes back to France after his honeymoon but they didn't know that Skar ain't coming back. So he went to america (I think) and Rambullet went somewhere with some random guy she asked to accompany her (in which later he became her husband). Karel hides in a different country with a different identity, then kept buying France newspaper to read about Sasha, he was thankful that his lover is a celebrity cause he could see him in the news.
- so in France, Sasha hears that they plan to arrest Karel and kill him. So Sasha who doesn't have any idea about karel's plans turn himself to the military. So he told the France military that he is a spy and Karel is clean. He told them that the reason he wanted Karel as his sponsor was to spy. France military then pinned it on Sasha cause they can't seem to see Karel so they just accepted that Sasha is spy. So they arrest him and tortured him. (Again Sasha is celebrity so this became a big news, a celebrity ballet is a spy. So it end up in the news) his execution also made it to news
- so Karel who kept buying newspapers that news travelled to him.
- so Sasha knowing he would die, he asked to see his nanny one more time. So he put his wealth and house to nanny and ask his nanny to register his kid (Charles) as nanny's brother and take care of Charles.
- on Sasha's execution date. Karel disguised himself as a soldier and infiltrated the France military to save Sasha and to erase Sasha's confession of being a spy On his infiltration he saw Sasha's letter (the one that didn't make it to him cause Sasha was suspected to be a Russian spy) he opened it. (I screenshoted this)
[Dear my beloved Karel,
I'm leaving to France to chase my dream,
If you still want to meet me, we can see each other after the war.
I will become a worthy person for you.
Your Sasha]
(Yeah bish he didn't leave Karel, he just chased his dream to become worthy for Karel, but still waited for him)
- so seeing that letter all that misunderstanding was gone about Sasha not loving Karel and Karel cried. After he finish his infiltration he saved Sasha from execution (the whole France thought Sasha was executed) so both Sasha and Karel travelledd via boat to escape to america, in the boat they both had a proper talk and Karel told Sasha about the letter and everything and misunderstanding about the nanny
- so (I'm not sure I think 10days or 3weeks not sure) they arrived to america they stayed in hotels and Julian also went to america after. Then Julian pulled some strings and Karel got a re-trial about his case (the one where he killed a thief who tried to rape Sasha) and he won, so he is now free and can use his own identity again. Later France and Austria did their war stuff and Sasha was revealed to be innocent. Sasha became a historical celeb in France and they built a statue for him. On contrary, Sasha in America was actually idle in his career and was just staying with Karel. so Karel asked Sasha about ballet, and pretty much Sasha still wanna do ballet.
- Later Sasha did a ballet show in America with Mikhail/Michael's help. Levin (Sasha's nanny) also relocated to america with karel's help. She also took Sasha's kid with her and her brother. So Charles was reunited with Sasha.
- In the ballet show Karel congratulate Sasha and he also bought a camera then recorded Sasha's performances with it.
- Later that Julian pursued Levin (Sasha's nanny) and after years of courting Levin agreed and marries Julian. George well he also went to america then later reunites with his fam
That's the end of main story.
So extra. (This is only one of the extra, there are 6 but imma just do this one)
- So this is the future. Sasha Cedrin a global popular ballet celebrity passed away, he passed away earlier than his friend Karel Clements is because of his health (is addicted to alcohol and had history of massive dose of opium usage in the past with contributed a negative effect to his health) later that Karel followed Sasha by suicide.
- so Charles is legally adopted by Karel Clements. all of Karel's riches went to Charles and Sasha listed Charles as his heir to his properties as well.
- Before Karel's death he used his money to expand a entertainment company that flourished in many years. later Sasha's properties became government property and some where put on auctions.
- after many years the CEO of a entertainment industry Carel Clements (Charles's great grandson) has a financial problem with his company. He then went back to look at Karel Clements properties cause he wanted to look for properties he can put on auctions to solve that problem. On looking he was able to know some bits of Karel Clements life, he then wondered who really is Sasha to Karel, he seems to be more than Karel's friend. Carel then visited Karel's house where he and Sasha lived together. There he found that every wall in the house was posted with Sasha's big portraits. He could see Karel's obssesion with the dancer. Later he stumbled to a old recording of Sasha's ballet performance. He fell in love with someone who can't be his, and in the footage he saw Karel Clements kissing the dancer.
After seeing the recording Carel became obssesed with the deceased Sasha where he had dated several people who looked like Sasha hoping to find his reincarnate. When he was about to give up and was jealous of Karel Clements. He visited one of the ballet group that his company sponsored. There he saw a young orphan ballet that looks exactly like Sasha so he asked his name. (Yeah it's Sasha's reincarnation)
Yeap that was long ass post, so congratulations for reading up until here. Thank you :)
2024-01-20 08:02 marked

I did go back and read the novel, so I'll just spoil some cute and serious plot points if anyone is interested. This being a SAMK novel, this author always has a penchant for including a very serious sexual assault allegations/act in her novels which centre the plot and the main characters in some way. Payback, December, and Half of Me is no exception.
* First of all, the kid - he is gay, that is true, and the person he was involved with is the class president's brother (who has not been introduced to the story) who is a psycho pedophile, yeah. He will be the main antagonist along with his BASTARD of a brother. This story is not just about bullying, but also serious sexual assault stuff. Our HEECHAN and Minjae will take revenge don't worry.
*Second, Minjae's past is about to come to the forefront. The reason he is not trusting is indeed with all that happened to his parents and the inherited money, like what is a SAMK novel without the male lead having family trauma and trust issues, but also a secondary character which will be HIS EX. That he did love but who cheated on him and even filmed a sex video of him without his knowledge which Heechan discovers and destroys it but the guy tries to snatch it from him and he even hits him and Minjae sees it and heechan is prepared that he will get mad at him but instead he CLOCKS the fuck out of his ex. That scene was amazing. So basically, the situation with his ex is complicated because he wants him to forgive him and I think he even threatens suicide if he doesn't. Minjae negotiates with heechan about helping the kid in exchange for heechan acting as his BOYFRIEND to make his ex give up on him. (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ this sly fox.
Thirdly, Minjae will love heechan so much and he will do a lot for him and the kid, who is not only traumatised by beinh violated and filmed by that trash asshole, but also that nobody would believe him since their mom is some powerful church lady who is even a bigger psycho. But Minjae is also rich and powerful and his boyfriend needs him to up his game and bring them justice. I love it when he's so jealous, even of his ex, because he doesn't want him to fall for heechan's charm lolol.
There is a scene when that bastard pedophile comes to bail his brother out of jail after heechan beat the living crap out of him, and the brother tried to flirt with heechan and asks for his number to contact them further and Minjae gets hella mad and basically keeps it in and goes on even over-protective mode and pulls an ace card calling his father which both the brothers fear, and he did it all for heechan. So don't worry, zaddy is the best. Heechan is also just super super lovely!!!!!!! I love Samk's main leads always.
Fourth, the twists here is going to be the time between the two bodies is going to start getting less and less and that is because the kid is losing his will to return at all, so heechan and Minjae are on a clock to have justice served so they can show him that his life is worth living and people believe him. And don't worry, it's a happy ending all around.
This story is very good, and I love their chemistry and their relationship and how daft heechan is to his looks and how lovable and wholesome he actually is, he even comforts the ex after he had hit him through the kid's body and the ex eventually has a little bit of a redeeming arc lol. Also, heechan realising his feelings for Minjae is also partly due to his ex since he feels bothered about it and also after he SEES actually sees the sex tape of Minjae and that ex, he starts to see Minjae in a different light, and it bothers him that he loved someone else so blindingly, and even asks him "Did you love him a lot?" LOL, but he'll come around and realise his feelings too since Minjae is such a babe anyway. I just love this story sm.
In the future chapters, I might spoil something more but for now this is it. Have fun you guys! (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ
2023-08-14 23:06 marked

As for Jiri, back then he probably took all the extra work to keep his mind off his depression and his unrequited love, tried to keep focused on something else and positive. The other faculty saw that as a cue to walk all over him. Eventually teaching became draining, when everyone walks all over you, and even your students see weakness and take advantage of it. You stop caring about things. He needs help. He needs support. Both him and Yuri just need to be loved and feel like they're special and important to somebody else. So I'm hopeful things get better as we go.
2021-10-12 12:42 marked

2021-08-01 11:08 marked
SPOILERS - repost for those who missed it last time