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I'm a straight female, and I've never had a boyfriend and never seriously had sex. I don't have any real reason to wait, except that I hate the idea of doing it with some random guy. I want to have sex with someone I care about, otherwise it won't be as rewarding, right? Sure, it'd feel good, but it would be pretty empty. So, no boyfriend means no ......

I am a very awkward person and you could say shy too but when I start talking to someone like mostly daily I get more talkative and very weird ass fuck for some reason