Jiwon's⛲fountain's feed

It physically and mentally hurts me to find gems like this so early like WHY COULDN'T I HAVE FOUND IT AT 100 CHAPTERS?NO OFC NOT I FOUND IT AT CHAPTER 1 I'm complaining about myself it happened the same w night song etc I LOVE THESE MANHWAS BUT LIKE I NEED TO WAIT FOR EVERY UPDATE AND IT HURTSSSSS