I never felt so distraught and sad reading something in my life. It was suppose to be scary but all I could do was cry for him. I felt bad. The pure hate he had for himself to imagine his victim as himself kills me inside. This part got me so hard, because he thought it was all a dream. He thought he got rid of himself, not his cousin, or even his mom. He thought he was getting rid of himself. This story is a perfect illustration of how overbearing parenting can be VERY harmful.