Specifically, the popstar aspect
dunno if its similar to love is an illusion but if you're talking about popstar/idol, star x fanboy and hyung, you're my idol are one of my personal favs
I'm so tired of the "I'm recessive and totally not cool enough for you" trope
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/unromantic/ Dominant uke, puppy like seme
I'm looking for stories similar to Ore no Kimochi ga Wakaru ka (Do you understand my feelings?)
Specifically, dark with no sugar coating. Abusive seme and submissive uke (not specifically masochistic but accepting due to dependency on the seme)
Alternatively, any recs where the seme chooses someone that looks like the uke due to copium
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/ore_no_kimochi_ga_wakaru_ka/
I don't know if it matches your taste but the seme is a sadist here "Aporia"
For example, "Call" where he gets therapy and acknowledges his partner can't cure his suicidal ideation. I need more realistic shit like that.
Cocoon of heart