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When I was 8 my mother passed a way, i turned 9 and just like 2 months passed, I didn't know any better and was hoping my mom would come back u know, early morning I had to start to wash up to go to school, my aunty called my cousins to eat, but I'm sad, i missed my mother, a couple moment my aunty started shouting at me, thrown the glass mug near my foot and shouted at me saying that 'if i dont wanna eat with my cousins which is her grandson and granddaughter, I shoukd just told her instead of showing poker face....

I just turned 9 then but that incident never left my memory until now....


I'm a victim, I was a teenager, a high schooler, was almost raped by my neighbor who my father considered as a little brother, told my father's sister about it cause I expected something for her, was told that I should not joke about such incident, and told that i must be just dreaming (I wish I WAS) took a couple of months and continue going to school with panic attacks and anxiety ( i didn't even know I have panic attack) had a courage told what happened to someone I considered my friend in highschool, THEY comforted me, I cried but after a week, what happened to me spread out to my classmate, I was then left out, was called names "slut, whore"

A year then, I got the courage again and this time I told my sister, I told her everything but she got angry at me and shouted at me, told my second sister yet she was not listening and the whole time I was telling her, she was on her phone.

And let u guys now, I didn't get to tell my father and brother. Why? My father is an alcoholic, he gets angry, he blames me for what my siblings did when I'm not even my sibling. I was called a slut for wearing a short that was below the knee only by my brother. I'm scared to my brother up until now xause he is violent, he beats up his wife when he gets drunk, he shouts and In my whole life, I've never been comfortable with him. Just talking to him scares me, loud noises scares me due to my family shouting.

Istarted working 2022 of November, I stopped going to school, can't pay the tuition, i worked and worked while being treated as a trash at work, good thing my contract with them ended sooner, applied to another company got hired, got in training passed the training, was sent to production, was felt up by my co worker, was asked by a guy co worker if I'm a virgin. Got called dumb cause most of the times, when they talk about things I dont know it or like i dont know the trends, got called dumb cause sometimes they speak about like a story and i don't really know the story.
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I took the time to write almost everything but these days, I feel like i dont know anymore...when i started working, my other sibling started pushing all responsibilities to me, I had to pay electricity, water bill, food and i still had to give my father allowance.
My salary was like 300$- 350$, when I go to work, I most of the time will not eat to save up money, cause my transportation is costly, house rent is costly. With the salary I had back then, it was not enough, I tried asking my siblings for help but Its either im left on read or just ignored.... I


I'm 21 turning 22 in December, I am scared of loud noises, scarec when touched even just a bare tap in the shoulder, and I'm so jealous of the people of my age whe atleast get to have money to spend for themselves and family that is so good to them....

I do my best but its like not enough, its barely enough..... I want to live too .

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Boy just wanna sleep and rest and then what HAHHAHAHAH

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I want to read a story where mc chooses the second lead. It can be bl/gl/ or just a straight couple. Im good, what matter is the content of the story

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He got you... right at the nipple HAHHAHA

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Hey, want a new playmate? A dog? I can be anythung you want just to be with you. 'Cause that damn smile took my heart and soul for a minute!!

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You know what, I hate my father. I'm being thrown out just because I like the same gender. He said to me "You clearly have sickness in mind." And know what he did? He sell me everytime he got the chance. It's already bad that I have been experiencing discrimination in school and work. It's already bad that I am almost selled to a church cult. What the hell is this.

What the hell did I do wrong to deserve this? Does loving someone with the same gender make me a criminal? If not, then why are they acting like I murder someone or I committed an unforgivable crime to everyone. The fuck.

Ssammyaoi answered question about reject a love confession
Ask him to booked a hotel room and then ill come but ill tranform to sangwoo and break his ankles and strip him and take millions of picture and if he have a qife or gf send it to them or even to his family so he will lose his fucking face. Second plan is ask him to come to my house and let my brother's dog eat his gits since if it doesn't now a pe......
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"Ah so it's true that a dog don't recognize attarctive creatures and just bark all the time huh" Ps. Ilikedogs but ilovecats so just u know
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I'm a depress person. I have anxiety and panics and i have trouble sleeping because of my past so I have no choice but to do it then

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I had one. It was my childhood bestfriend and he is my neighbor too. I have a long time crush to him but It never come to mind that I will confessed but one day he ask me if i want to be with him, and i said give me time and y dont you try earning my favor? And he did. It was like 1 and half year before i said yes to him. We were doin' good and hap......

I JUST FUCKING FOUND OUT THAT THIS HAS AN ANIME ADAPTION! Well, it was kinda accidentally. Story time, I have this guy who I really like and hey,we are close and I needed to borrow his phone to text my sister since they are friends and he said "sure, go on log in your acc. In my chrome" so did I and then BOOM gurl, I don't clearly remember the site because what caught my eyes was the title of the video it was FUCKED BY MY BESTFRIEND and then later on, I found out he's into guys and he like my brother. T^T i support him and he became more close but them y my useless brother thou?

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I JUST FUCKING FOUND OUT THAT THIS HAS AN ANIME ADAPTION! Well, it was kinda accidentally. Story time, I have this guy who I really like and hey,we are close and I needed to borrow his phone to text my sister since they are friends and he said "sure, go on log in your acc. In my chrome" so did I and then BOOM gurl, I don't clearly remember the site because what caught my eyes was the title of the video it was FUCKED BY MY BESTFRIEND and then later on, I found out he's into guys and he like my brother. T^T i support him and he became more close but them y my useless brother thou?

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Yitttt we all know why he's rainbow colored aura ehe

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Two cuties are together!!!!

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ARGHHHH FUCK THIS!!! IM GETTING FRUSTRATED GODDAMNIT, LET THEM BE HAPPY!!! (/TДT)/

Fuck, it's 1:42 am and I literally am holding my voice because if not, I'm gonna get smack by my parents lmao HAHAHA