
I feel too old for this since I'm already middle-aged and always wish this kind of story happened to me but it feels too late. Nevertheless, I had opportunity to be involved with elementary schools in my late 20s. I could say that even as someone not playing a big role, I am proud whenever students develop soft skills and be more human.
I remember a time when I felt worthless and had passive suicidal thoughts, thinking that even if I disappeared...nobody would really care, or that it might make the people around me feel guilty for taking me for granted. I talked about it with my housemates. They said they didn't want to die but wanted to be hospitalised, just to see who truly cared about them. I replied that I didn't think anyone would care, even if I were hospitalised. The hospital and gallery scene brought tears to my eyes...as I found myself hoping that someone would do the same for me, even though I knew it was almost impossible. ╥﹏╥
I hope you are okay now if u need someone to talk to I am here x
Hopefully you will find someone
Thanks so much for offering. ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~ I still feel a bit too vulnerable for a proper chat right now. But just reading your comment...without downplaying my struggle or how I’m coping...already means a lot. ╥﹏╥
That’s really kind of you. ╥﹏╥Your words made me feel like maybe it’s worth holding on to a bit of hope.
Don’t worry healing always takes time and process may be hard but u can get thru it I believe in it