ʍɛʟʍօռ's Things

Hi yes i now have the knowledge to ask questions here on mangago for a long period of time and hows you? Both physically and mentally or just say whatever you want to say
Heres mine
I do shit hard like my homework, school and household chores
Yes
I do them everyday except im starting to notice things about me that are really not me
Yes im lazy i tend to sleep about 30 minutes a day but like rn i sleep the whole fuckin day and im as active as my cat at night
Some nights are sleepless and restless some are night thoughts that almost literally makes me commit death or just cry endlessly
Somedays im so so so goddamn tired somedays im extremely active
My mood changes alot and extremely fast
I also daze alot i much rather prefer living in my dreams and imaginations i tend to turn away from reality alot now i dont do this when i was younger i much rather focus on reality than imaginations
Maybe because of my mom?
Shes been really pushing me alot
At times when i voice out myself because i feel wronged with all the accusations she gives me
Like
Hey you're so lazy why don't you get up and do the chores(I've always did my chores, every single day even)
What? You're being sad all feeling depressed and stuff you haven't even got out of this house yet to feel what i felt when i was there i didnt even feel to depression and some shit trend you young assholes have(im telling the truth tho why dont you believe me)
My sister whom i rarely see her help do stuff at home just got to do the chores for 1 day because i was on my period and in alot of pain
She'll get extremely mad at me for not doing it and that im a useless animal
My father
I dont know hes physically there but ehat now?
Im doubting my family
Its like im losing my trust and bond between them
Thank you for reading i really appreciate your time