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This one have a happy ending but 10 years is just fucking pain

Ok thanks imma read this

yeah this one at least have happy moments. but 10 years where I loved you the most is just tears...

l,,, no happy ending it has the sadest most miserable ending ever,, adn the novel hurts even more

It is a story about how love wrecked ukes life,, and how love destroyed him rendering him unable to get up again,,,
At first he endured and endured the struggle and the harhsio,, all the pain cause by his lover, in hope of saving his live life, and in hope his lover would choose him

Which in the end he still lives him,, he has loved him for more than 10 years, but in the end the amount of love he had for him could not make the other love him as much,, and so for the sake of himself he leaves in hope of having peaceful last moments in which he reflected on his love,,, which he just couldn't let go off



The doctor met him at the time he was struggling the most and fell in love with him,,, however the uke had someone else in his heart, and even when he left he was soo exhausted that he jsut wanted to live the remaininf days he has quietly


There are other reasons for why this is so miserable and I can telm u if u eat

I tried to make it as vague as possible

Ya know thank u for ur reply...I think I better not read this coz I cant take it..if I read this imma sulk over it for about a week which I am not ready for & it's not good for my mental health as well, this happened with me few times & what's worst is when I fall for 2nd lead ...but the story is beautifully written indeed,the suffering u mentioned I could fell them all,I would have definately read this if the uke atleast loved the doctor at the end but he left the world with that bastard in his heart,that's what most frustrating anyways tysm for explaining again...(づ￣ ³￣)づ

If you want angst I can tell you

I cried form reading a spoiler (not even the story yet) and was depressed for a while because of it

The things that happen are so painful by themselves,, just hearing about them gives you ehart ache,
Now imagine how much worse the heart ache would be when you link the events to chara tees which you make a connection with as you read the story, characters that come tk life in the storyline and one's wiht 3D emotions

Ya it hurts don't read it

I just came here
Looked at the cover
Cried for half an hour after answering your comments, cz I remembered the story

This is a wake up call for for anyone about to start a relashinship

I'm scarred of liking people honestly


BTW I recommend you read 'love mode' Instead
It does have a bit of tragedy and stuff but it's made in a way that you accept it and kinda has this hopeful filter on everybting
And super good ending for everyone

Omyyy indeed I was depressed the whole day today & my family was like wth is wrong with ya, I replied idk I miss somebody but i have no idea who n I was sad the whole day geezz..little do they know that I was depressed about a manga character which I havent started reading yet sounds funny but people like me n you know how that kindof suffering is...its so good to talk to similar mind...& tbh after this spoilers I am also kinda thinking..if it hurts to truly love someone I rather not love（￣へ￣）& I m gonna start reading love model just as u recommended....tysm...ohh just wanted to ask, I saw the uke & doctor kissed, was it without any love from uke's side? I mean were they in relation be it in novel or manhua? Or they just live together as friends? Does the uke never say he likes him,are they not a couple okkk I get that uke was in love with the bastard till the end still was he not in love relation with the doctor?

At one point the uke leaves the seme

And goes with the doctor, he owes the doctor so much,,, he still lives the seme,, but he decides to offer himself to the doctor,, cz he owes him so much,,,, and spends the rest of his days with hte doctor,,, and then tells the doctor in another life he will fall in love with him

Also Yessss
Super sensitive and people don't understanddddddd

Alos ukes death is 100 percent the semes fault

Totally abs absolutely trash seme here

Omygod now this statement is making me sad all over again...how I wished there would be afterlife where they both can fall in love & be happy forever

Ihv never hated any seme as much as I m hating this bastard...seriously there r tones of trash semes out there but I seem to forgive them somehow but this one right here is just..uggs I cant

He didn't only ruin ukes life

But also the guy he cheated with (he drove him to suicide), cz the guy didn't know he was a side chick and truly loved him,, but when he found out, he still wanted to be with him in hope of getting loved back
He became his fuck buddy and did everything for him,,, but in the end he was disposed, and lost his drive in life,, comitiing suicide

He cheated with so many people too

And ya the doctor can never love again

Omyyy God he is such a piece of trash ...like seriously he has ruined so many people's life..I feel so bad for people who lov this piece of shit...just why why do people fall for garbage like him & a treasure like the doctor ends up being without love...I mean this is kinda realistic coz people indeed fall for cheaters

And at one point he victimised himself and make it seem as if he's been wronged


This story hit harder and I remembered it recently (which lead me to see your comment) because if an event that just happened to my fried this Friday
Her boyfriend cheated on her and she broke up,, she liked him so much, and wanted to marry him,,, she gave him her everything, despite everyone's opposition,,, she really gave him soo much
And he cheated so balantly

She said she should've listened to her mom
She shouldn't have strayed if she knew it would've ended up like this

That must hurt alot..uggghhh why this cheaters geeezzz.. I hope your friend finds a better person who loves her genuinely...I have seen many around my friend circles who gets cheated but despite the fact that some endup forgiving those garbage...seriously this is reality,when the cheater bf comeback & beg them for forgiveness they just forgive them so easily..I mean like wtf

I’m guessing because of the cover ( ; _ ; )

The cover is indeed misleading tbh they should have put up the handsome cover

Agree! (๑ ・ㅂ・)و✧

Mind tell me the reason I love spoilers.

Idk what the reason is coz I dont understand what they were talking about lmao but seems like the cafe owner is jealous of the uke since he was himself a writer once upon a time but failed due to some reason

Aah..that make sense too lol.

Fcking called it, the cafe owner had this vibe and was handsome as he was standing out in the extras. He didn't even looked like an extra and I found it suspish when he said the stuff abt seeing some guy running away

Omgggg new it (●￣(ｴ)￣●)

Yes indeed...there will be one suspicious guy who was with the reporter,I literally thought it was him & the reporter colluding to do that stuff to uke but at the end it was the cafe guy

I sure do hope so you're right （￣へ￣）remember how Heil has been playing around in the past? Omggg i cant

Omg his past was one hella ride..i dont wanna see Heil related to any other Gods geezz,hope that shits doesnt comeback to haunt River,poor baby has suffered way too much..not with Heil again please,I just hope the so called daughter of his was born out of magic...& well theres a possibility that River can be the reason the father daughter solve whatever the shits happening between them（￣へ￣）

I just read the new update and it broke my heart

One thing I can say "Heil had a colorful past" :(

Omg yesssss my prediction was absolutely wrong...just whyyyy I mean we knew he was promiscuous but still...with a human? Like seriously..n on top of that he didnt even bother to tell his partner for more than 10years that he has a fucking child?? I m seriously so pissed rn..I just hope this plot doesnt endup breaking them n river ending with Khaol...no waayyy please ...we dont want that piece of trash to have anything to do with River

And now heil is not even meeting with River river has been through alot alreadyyy. I just want him to be happy

Ugggghhh why cant Heil just tell him the truth..I mean it isn't his fault either kinda coz Heil's true nature is not what he usually is with river, he didnt show him his true nature,that's why he is avoiding river coz he dont want to be seen like that.. i just hope he talks with river & river as well accepts his flaws & live happily ever after