Spoilers ahead, I'm analyzing the fuck outta this because I'm so freaking sad
CLOTHES SYMBOLISM
I feel for both of them. Tbh I feel like the clothes symbolize how restricting noble life is for both of them. Clauden feels restricted and sick at the very thought of being in that house with those clothes because they don't align with him as a person (also yeah he's hella traumatized after getting beat up, who wouldn't :( )
Luan despised the very thought of being a Count as well. He only pursued it because he was forced to. He doesn't actually have what it takes to be a noble.
Imo his new shoes feeling tight and uncomfortable can show how restricted he is with this lifestyle. But him taking them off and taking a break in nature with Clauden, shows how that's his true calling.
COMMUNICATION ISSUES
He's a lover boy, but he doesn't know how to communicate. I mean all his life his feelings have been disregarded and shunned. No adult in his life (beside his father's aide) took him seriously. They sent him away so he could prepare for a life he didn't want while also hoping he would just bury his feelings away. I swear, had Clauden been a girl, no adult would have had a problem with Luan's feelings for him. Homophobia is a sick thing.
RUNNING WAY ISSUES
And to those saying how Clauden is ready to move on, no he's not. He's ready to run away. He feels like he doesn't matter due to the class differences between Luan and him. He assumes things and gets hurt when he feels as though his assumptions have been confirmed by Luans behavior. (Like how he assumed Luan didnt care about the connection between them as kids because he has shitty memory. Shitty memory does not have equate to not caring. I mean did we forget that he literally had put his whole childhood aside for his studies!? Like HELLO!?? Luan would have been disowned, had he not done what his father asked of him)
ANYWAY, Clauden belittles himself because he doesn't want to be rejected by the one he loves. Also HES HELLA TRAUMATIZED FROM GETTING BEAT TF UPP (im not excusing Luan's shitty behavior, just explaining because there's actually something called NUANCE)
BOTH of them can't communicate for shit which makes this whole thing even sadder
#freemyshaylas
Sorry guys I just had to get this off my chest. This story js actually decently written. The author might not have intended for the clothes part but my mind is always running (save me)
Stop this madness!!! My heart can't take it he's so sweet!! they both deserve better ヽ(`Д´)ﾉ
Just food for thought but maybe saying yes is an option too ┑(￣Д ￣)┍?
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..omg who said that!?
Can someone alert me of when the rape and detailed sa chapters pass? I don't wanna read that (I can handle implied) I js wanna read when he's finally happy ┗( T﹏T )┛
pretty sure ch.20 is like the most traumatic one SA one. It gets better and more wholesome after, for whats out for now at least!
Aside from that theres alot of Abuse and it'll make ur blood boil. just fyi.
and additionally you really dont have to read ch20 to know whats up. it'll show u in ch 21 whats the aftermath. And u can imagine why mister dipshit over here did it. someone erase him pls. ew.
THANK YOUU YOU'RE SO SWEET And HEAVILY agree on the last part js seeing him makes my skin crawl like yikes such an ugly mf
<3 fr!!!
OMG THEYRE SO CUTE EVEN WRITING THIS IN CAPS DOESN'T CONVEY MY EXCITEMENT PROPERLY OMGOMGKMG EEEEEE
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THIS WAS SUCH A CUTE STORY OMGGG I LIT CANT BELIEVE ITS OVERRR ┗( T﹏T )┛
I've been reading this since it came out (years now) and now it's over omg imma cryyy
The characters were so great and the plot actually stayed on track and for that, this is my favorite isekai manwhua ╥﹏╥ so adorbs
This!! One of very few stories that aré actually really good <3
I LOVE THIS STORY BUT MY POOR SHAYLAAAAA SHE DESERVES HAPPINESS Σ(っ°Д °;)っ