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It was rated 8.9 but I still read it because there's a lot of positive comments about it. Some even say that the mc and ml is cute so i gave it a try. However I was disappointed because almost every chapter, if not all, the seme is forceful and the uke? he's older and "smart" but i think that he's just like kim dan in jinx, and I hate that type of uke. I read a lot of stories with a lot of SA, mind you, I've read a lot of stories like this and I even prepared myself for this story too, but I still hated it. The plot is all about sa, sa and blackmail then sa and then eventually falling in love with the abuser. I was planning to read the novel because I was expecting a chasing or proper apology and forgiveness arc, but when I read the comments in the novel, it was obvious that it was just ignored because the uke "wanted to move forward." There's also little character development for the seme though some said that their relationship will be better in the end.
To be honest I may have hated this because I have high expectation because of the comments even after preparing myself about the SA. However after reading this, I am handling the SA in this story worse than Killing stalking and waterside night that I'd rather recommend those two stories rather than this story. I don't get the plot and for me, the uke is really weak, or i guess I just expected too much.
I'm really bad in explaining so those who wants the explanation why i hated it, just search "beloved enemy" it's in NU. You'll find better explanations in the comments there.