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I'm rereading this story now, and I mean... it's interesting how Taku starts off being portrayed in a sort of more "positive" light. Which is the opposite compared to Joowon (though his sex tape shit was creepy to me from the get go. bl readers will just excuse anything lol)
Anyway, as the story proceeds though: Taku just regresses further and further. idk how his stans continued to cape for him honestly lol. Like is it cause this man brought Heesoo food when he was sick and said a fake "I love you" to HS like a week after meeting him?? Meanwhile he's talking to his friend all like "I just want to see the story he writes when i leave him" LMAO. Is playing with people fun Taku? :D The writer only chooses to show this LATER though, so I think taku stans with no reading comprehension cant connect the dots at all. Or the scene where he comforts Haesoo who is crying? You go like "awww". But then LATER, you see Taku's thoughts during the moment like: "It felt good to see you sad. You needed me because of your unhappiness". tf??? And don't get me started on him revealing his intention with the sex tape, or how he acted during the breakup which are later into the story. lol yikes.
Meanwhile, Joowon from the start: he was portrayed as the 'bad guy'. When in reality, he wasn't truly. He DEFINITELY had his flaws like being too immature, possessive and arrogant. Like when he says "You can't live without me", or how he says Haesoo will get tired of whoever he dates and come crawling back to him every time. He was an asshat to Haesoo in this regard. But the truth was, Haesoo with his manipulative ways constantly trying to make Joowon angry and jealous, plus wanting Joowon to suffer because he thought he was the only one hurting, was ALSO just as much at fault for their unhealthy dynamic. The pain inflicted wasn't one sided. Yet Haesoo's insecurities and self-victimization narrate the story, saying that Joowon doesnt care, Joowon has it easy, etc. Even when Joowon is hurting too in this open r/s, wanting to tell Haesoo he loves him for years but never being able to due to their complicated situation n his fears.
But anyway. Joowon started off pretty flawed, but then just gets continuous development over the course of the story and owns up to his mistakes. His development is realistically portrayed and kinda carries LOH on its back in S2-3. We also get a lot more on his background and WHY he did the things he did. Which doesn't excuse his actions, but it does help us understand him more. So yeah... Joowon really spends the whole story since the breakup reflecting on himself, giving Haesoo the space he wants, and he suffers over and over literally just to protect Haesoo?? Even when Haesoo essentially told him he's not worth it, and he doesn't love him enough to endure their relationship. And Joowon STILL calls him up to say "I'm always on your side. I'm all yours". Bitch drop Haesoo and take me instead! lmao. Okay I kind of went on a tangent there, but I had a lot of these thoughts rereading this story.