ive been looking for a certain thing idk if its manga/hwa/hua. but from what I remember there's this girl who's sort of like a goddess or deity of some sort and she has to experience humanity as a test of sorts. anyways she and this guy both have to go to the human world and reincarnate 3 times I forgot if they had a certain mission I think they had to find each other among all the other humans without their memories. in the first life she took care of him and was like a sort of mentor towards him? but she sacrificed herself for him and was reincarnated. then in their next life she was a guy and he was a girl and she was really popular with guys bc they found themselves being attracted to her even though she was a dude and the guy would be jealous. but HE LIKED HER IN BOTH LIVES. im like actually going crazy I cannot find it at all and ive been looking for I think 2 years now please help ╥﹏╥