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pilgyun gone missing w/o telling nanmu,, and nanmu break down ╥﹏╥
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also cuz he had a dream that pilgyun said he was "dirty" 'n shiz so he woke up crying 'n then asked the other dude if he was "dirty" but the other dude said "no imma prove it blabla" then they slept 'n nanmu was crying while doing it but he kept thinking that the "warmth" wasn't like how it is wid pilgyun 'n that he's still dirty by doing it or sumthn
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I hate that he wants validation, he is insecure and that’s sad and needs help. He is so mean to himself and that’s not okay, he should love himself and not want validation, he is fine the way he is but he doesn’t realize. Nanmu cried because he was feeling emotional, not because of the sex itself. He kept thinking of Pilgyun, even before he had to think about Pilgyun to feel good. I feel bad for him.
It’s too much.
Also Nanmu’s mindset isn’t very healthy, I also kinda feel bad for the dude he’s fucking with, it seems like he likes Nanmu but knows he’s just temporary sex comfort and nothing more than friends.
I also hope Nanmu stops going to those two guys for sex, there are plenty of healthier ways to be comforted. He deserves someone who genuinely loves him and he loves them back. Pilgyeon is a bit crazy but he’ll do.
Nanmu isn’t dirty at all. I hope Pilgyeon comforts him more.
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Finally!! Clear up the misunderstandings. I hope Nanmu stops sleeping with those dudes since he knows he likes Pilgyeon and knows Pilgyeon is head over heels for him. He knows Pilgyeon was mad when Pilgyeon found out he slept with his buddy before. And he did it again. And of course he has no obligation to stop but aside from that, it’s healthier to find comfort in something else other than just plain sex.
I personally don’t like seeing main character in BLs sleeping with someone else other than the ML
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ur right! idek if the other dude likes nanmu, I think he said that iz just his "greed" that keeps him from wanting to be wid nanmu or sumthn... but who knows, maybe he actually does 'n he's just indenial/doesn't rlly know or accept that he liked him that way but I hope ut goes well for him too... (THERE'S THIS SCENE IN THE RAWS WHERE HE BUMPS WID THIS HANDSOME DUDE 'N MY DELULU SELF WAS LIEK, "oho..ho~?" BUT IDEK RLLY... maybe..? side story cough)
Also I think after Nanmu finally clears the misunderstanding wid Pilgyun, he'll stop doin' it wid anybody else 'n their relationship 'n wellbeing will improve, 'n I hooooope that they work on their shortcomings together, 'n grow a healthy mentality on the future when they finally get together! I wish they'd go to therapy but iz not possible wid these typa manhwas lmao (I MEAN IZ RARE I'VE SELDOM SEEN CHARAS GO SEEK MENTAL HELP BUT LIKE...)
anyways yeah... is all.
i love them