Fei's Things

I came to realize I’m a lesbian back in 2017 when I was still in high school. Since 2020, I’ve been really into GL and BL stories, but lately, something strange has been weighing on me. Up until 2021, I could watch straight media and shoujo anime/manga without much thought. Romance was just part of the story.

But now, whenever I watch shows or read manga with straight couples, especially ones that focus heavily on romance, I feel this deep, heavy sadness in my chest. It’s like a painful reminder of something I can’t quite put into words. I’ve started avoiding those kinds of stories because it just hurts too much, and I don’t fully understand why.


Has anyone else gone through this?

So a while ago a classmate from finance management class tapped my shoulder to ask this
"Hey I noticed you were reading a manhwa earlier. What were you reading?"

"Kill Switch."

"Ohh nice what's the genre?"

"Yuri."

There's dead silence and I can see the guy beside her purse his lips and look away. I immediately regret it. I'm never telling anyone again I know this is stupid to worry over but I just wanna know if it was a bad idea to say that? I might've made them uncomfortable HAHSHASDJS