
I think our MC has suicidal tendencies bc of his low self worth. I think he had them before his heart operation and still has them. One of the most common forms of this that isn't the obvious like actually trying to kill ur self, is reckless behavior.
It's Passive Suicidal ideation, he has nothing to live for and feel like a burden so the idea of doing dangerous thing like this doesn't bother him. For him it seem he made this choice because he will either succeed in helping them or he will die doing so. This makes him feel like his life is worth something until he does die. More evidence is how willing he was to let himself drown. And I have a feeling the accident he was in that got him the heart transplant was likely caused by this behavior as well.
Yeah, As it says in the name it's basically the passive for of suicidal thoughts. Ie. Instead of "i should kill myself" it's "life would be easier/better if I were dead". They're not gonna actively swallow pills or shoot themselves, theyre the type to cross a street without looking both ways despite knowing better.
They have just as little attachment to the world because, just like the active suicidal person, they expect to die eventually. Him helping others until the inevitable is like how someone gives you something cherished before they off themself. That's the vibe he gives me. If that is the direction author goes I'll be very interested bc it makes him very dimensional as a uke.
This is one of those stories where you'd wanna get mad at the Mc for being so dense but there are so many people giving him the wrong information that it makes sense why he is assuming the ml doesn't like him.
And the Ml is like ones of those letters that say "do you like me □yes □no" except the dumb ass who wrote it only wrote "□yes □no" and is confused why he isn't getting an answer when in reality he never asked it.
The MC it's a certified idiot and somehow all the characters around him fall below the idiot line landing a bulls eye between dumbass and Jackass. They all have the emotional compacity of a monkey who eats his own turds.