Well, I'd choose this story than reading about a victim falling in love with his/her rapist/harasser/molester. Those kinds of stories are far more ridiculous than this one.
QUESTION: NO BUTT PREP? Just sticking it in without preparing the butt? Won't it hurt? Fine maybe the author skipped that part but fingering makes the scenes better. I guess the story was never meant to have any sensuality BUT STILL! That would hurt AF!
Now, you've discovered the term "Yaoi hole". Like yaoi hands, it is a staple of yaoi mangas. This refers to the self-lubricating buttholes in yaoi. Lube rarely exist in the yaoi universe.
"What are my feelings worth?"
The hell!! That hurt me so much. All the stories are sweet, painful and sexy af. Ugh, I want more.