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Any unrequited love bl manga recommendations that feels like you’re literally getting stabbed in the heart?

I’m finding this bl manhwa where the ml is a demon who’s blonde (I think his real name is raven but he goes by the name Jesus?) and the mc used to be in an orphanage where he got sa’ed and forced to cross dress and his name used to be Jane(?). I also remember the mc losing his contact lenses and the ml accidentally stepped on one of his lenses so ml wanted to buy him glasses