
I was still mad at rik and was annoyed when he tried to apologize in public, and if I was jinhyeong I would feel the need to do to Rik what he did to me, but that was not satisfying at ALL usually revenge is satisfying but not once was I like "hell yeah you tell him!" It was more "oh... Not too much now" because it wasn't even just the fact that he was saying ts in public, it was WHAT he was saying, he went too far (this doesn't make what Rik did any better but it still just felt so wrong)

I was waiting for jinhyeong to say something in chapter 60 but we'll have to wait for the next chapter. I said recently that I understand them both, and I do, to an extent. I understood Rik's frustration when in the presence of someone you feel has suffered less than you, but that ended when he decided to hurt him the way he did. He claims he needs to be able to endure this stuff if he wanted to be his family, but that type of family is what jinhyeong wants to get AWAY FROM. Doing the exact same thing his father does and even taking his intimate secrets and making them public?? That's the shit jinhyeong hated so much that he wanted to run away. "Family" doesn't hurt each other, nor do they want to, THATS the family jinyeong wanted. They both had flaws, they both hurt each other, the difference is that jinhyeong did it unintentionally. I also said earlier that I hope they can reconcile and be friends again but that was because I thought jinhyeong or his father had wronged rik, now I'm not so sure how I feel

I don't think I had it as bad as either of them, but I can still relate to their perspectives even if I don't necessarily agree with them. Like the black haired guy, sure it sounds like he's demeaning jinhyeongs feelings by telling him he doesn't have it as bad, but I can understand where he's coming from and the frustration that comes with it. I'm sure he has a lot of regrets and fear that he bottles inside, and he was telling jinhyeong to suck it up because that's what he tells himself. People who don't know how to console others often tend to do it in ways they'd console themselves/want to be consoles (speaking from experience)

The little guy is clearly schizophrenic or smth idk how this guy doesn't get that I wanted them to have a happy ending of some sort, in their own little way, but it's just gradually getting worse for the both of them. Also how come the little guy never answers questions? Ts is so annoying, like the other guy thinks he's just some sex crazed lunatic druggie when in actuality he's a mentally ill kid who jots down his experiences because he's unable to tell between fiction and reality
I'm so freaking glad the backstory ended the way it did, I was so sure Rik was never gonna see him again and then they'd suddenly meet in the present. I'm so glad he was came back and had some closure, jinhyeong wouldn't be where he is today without Rik's advice