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Other question is about my friend

We’ve been friends for 10+ years and we use to hang out a ton FaceTimeing pretty much everyday but now we don’t because they got a boyfriend and I was mostly doing the work to stay friends like trying to hang out and keep a convo flowing but they just don’t put any effort in like I’ll set a day to hang out and then the day of they will say they can’t because of work even if the told me they would be free and like with ft we use to just sit there and talk about stupid stuff but now they will just hang up when we run out of life updates or they will ask to switch to discord so there bf can join which is fine honestly but them I’m left out of any convos going on after that point / we don’t ft anymore and so I stopped putting in effort to keep convos going and I’ll get a few memes here and there but that’s about it they even forgot my birthday too and I’m just wondering if I should keep up this friendship or just let it die

Ok mini rant here but also questioning does anyone else just like want to have a relationship but like the thought of like erring close to someone just like freak you out like?

I’m like 90% sure I’m asexual like the thought of doing it with another human being just disgusts me and I don’t think I could ever wanna do it but I’m now questioning if I’m also aromantic because I like the thought of a relationship but i don’t think I could ever get that close with someone

A situation I’m in right now is a person in my friend group definitely likes me and has asked me to hang out and go to a look out spot by the lake to look at the stars or sum and he’s really nice but I had made myself sick at the thought of going to hang out with him alone and like thinking of the fact that if I ever got in a relationship with him I would have to bring up the fact that I’m asexual and I haven’t really told anyone that yet and I think it would be embarrassing ish