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Your name is Alyssa, you are 11 years old and you and your mum are spending time with each other.
You remember a past where your mother cheated on your father so you tell her with a joke and a smile on your face, eventually your mother started getting mad and blamed your father for being a useless bastard and started to say she wished she'd marry that person or this person... You, had cared for your mum then questioned, "If you'd marry that policemen, then you wouldn't have me." your mother then pauses and said that you were a mistake and went off away.

Question no.1 : If you were Alyssa what would you do?

asking in real time because my mum recently said that to me and I want to feel better, sorry if this takes time.