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I can honestly relate to the complicated situation of the characters. I, for one, is a closeted bisexual because I hate how society's notion of homosexuality works in a country where majority of the religion arr Christians. But, aside from this, I just came to terms with my sexual orientation few years ago. The only one who knows are my bff and girl crush at wlrk. Lol. So for the complicated situation, I am in a long distance relationship for 7 years. It's quite a while and I'm getting tired of this LDR situation. I can't seem to give it up, because I can't imagine myself starting from square one. But, I sometimes find myself overthinking about my girl crush at work who knows that I have a crush on her. She inspires me everyday. I am sometimes torn about the ideas of "what ifs". We spend alot of times together and some of the people actually thought that we're dating. I know she's also in the "comphet" notion. I also feel that our feelings "might" be mutual because we're just so comfy with each other like a sis, bestfriend and a lover. There were a couple of hints. Just spending time with her feels too precious. But yes, I have a LDR boyfriend and having second thoughts is a big no. She knows it too. We're in a complicated situation. I told my crush that being her girl best friend works well for both of us. It's a forever thing. She didn't reject me confessing to her. I kept overthinking about this difficult situation and last Saturday was the last straw. I decided to stop all my daydream of being with her for more than just friend. It's a bad idea. Being in a dilemma. Destroying what we have is the least choice. I am in the middle of moving on with my feelings for her. I have to come to terms with it. But, she will continue to inspire me. I hope that I won't falter because just seeing her at work keeps me going. As for my boyfriend, I do love him. He does his best. I hope we can all survive the complicated situations we have in every relationship.