
my two cents on why oraboni is feeling that way:
During that trial of the Three Kings, the shadow person is actually Modern!MC before the transmigration and since she still sees that as an important part of her when she stabbed herself, it would seem as though a part of her has been gone as sacrifice to gain the Makya sword.
Or another theory, that part of herself has become the 'Makya' sword. Since the two swords could be seen as Yin and Yang, the two parts of herself could also be an allusion to this.
i could keep yapping lol

I was actually thinking that she finally accepted both parts of herself. Most of the manhwa she thought about her role as a character in the novel instead of thinking about herself as a living person. She was just going according to the script and when she fought her ex-fiance she even said that she if fighting the MC of the novel which, for me, implied she still saw everything just as a book. In the trial she finally understood that her novel self isn't just a role but her from the beginning. She is a living person of this world and not a puppet of the script.

I don't like this type of story at all. It's a disappointing read. I'm stopping at ch15 because I can't bear it anymore.
She's so dumb that it's unbelievable. Girl, you're engaged to a prince and you're still getting on with a ton of men who are clearly interested in you and are always making moves any chance they get. If you claim to be a manga nerd or read webnovels then you'd know how to conduct yourself in such an environment and era smh. The whole trope about becoming like Nightingale just gets thrown out of the loop because of all the mingling drama with these LI candidates. The premise of the introduction of nursing and other medical thingies was interesting, but the whole presentation... meh
There's a lot of other issues and believe me I tried to turn a blind eye to everything and just read it for the sake of the art style while only using one braincell but that one braincell couldn't handle it and gave up.
Unless you're a fan of brain damaged fls with her 'cluelessly' formed reverse harem then you'd likely have the same sentiments as I do.
i feel like v10 c2 is just watered down ftm x fem and im just soo ε=ε=(ノ≧∇≦)ノ
i feel very strongly for adelaide like yess!!!