i was convinced the author was allergic to happy ending for a second but they gave us a complex, realistic, yet hopeful lens of queer relationships!!!
but srsly, the way jeongwon takes everything way too seriously and never shows emotion is either a pinch of the tism or like, psychopathy,,,,
“i like who i am when im with you” = to be loved is to be changed
at least the empress has a notion that shes in the wrong—thats why shes so paranoid all the time.
the emperor, on the other hand, thinks hes so fucking holy for not being overtly abusive and always taking the cowards way out. he hasnt even considered the possibility that hes responsible for this situation that everyones been put in.
yejun,,, babygirl,,, this mans trauma is not your problem get a fucking grip and think about yourself
flipping the whole “you were only born to love me” back on to jerry was so perfect cuz hes RIGHT
even the wording of targets makes it seem like jerry is the one pursuing ilya
(also my mind is also amazing cuz i predicted that ilya could directly interact with, defy, and change the system like ten chapters ago)
i love how the random xd nutjob mc is the predictable device in this plot while the stereotypical alpha ml is the wildcard who is def gonna throw off everyones expectations
bro seyeong fell for the side of him thats a pathetic wet rag of a man with more parental trauma and abandoment issues than an entire orphanage
when growe stopped being stupid i went “correct!” in my head at the same time as the narration
same face syndrome???? they are cousins! obviously they look similar the mangaka can definitely draw different facial features but they chose to make the ukes look similar because THEY ARE RELATED
god whenever he kisses sejoons hands its like the most romantic thing ever bcs hes trying so hard to be gentle with sejoon
ok so, ilya can sense the system’s mana, sure. BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY, he can directly INTERACT with the system’s mana (he was able to just throw away jerry’s settings screen). so thats basically proof that the system can’t influence him to behave outside of his will. even if everyone else can be swayed by the system, i think ilya is resistant (moreover, that means ilyas feelings are genuine, but we been knew about that for a long time now)
whats even worse than etty thinking love is pain is that the only alternative to resolve his trauma is to realize that until rishar, he has never in his life been truly loved
on top of the doomed yuri, even the couple that happily got together suffers thru angst in the side stories
i get its to show his feelings of affection escaping, but why a deer specifically? is it like a play on words in chinese or something?