My friend has been actively pursuing guys this last year, he is better looking tall, white and has a decent job.
I'm also gay but have been forced to live with family due to foolish mistakes on my part in education. It's my fault and I brought it upon myself. I'm going back to school for a degree that can actually get me a job and I'm happy to have a goal to work towards.
But when he showed off his boyfriend...I was really surprised at how I felt. I felt not joy for him. But this dark pit of jealousy. I didn't feel hate for him or anything but...I had successfully buried the sadness that I got from being rejected by men (especially white men) away and his announcement just made the wound bleed again.
Why can't I be happy for him?
I'm also gay but have been forced to live with family due to foolish mistakes on my part in education. It's my fault and I brought it upon myself. I'm going back to school for a degree that can actually get me a job and I'm happy to have a goal to work towards.
But when he showed off his boyfriend...I was really surprised at how I felt. I felt not joy for him. But this dark pit of jealousy. I didn't feel hate for him or anything but...I had successfully buried the sadness that I got from being rejected by men (especially white men) away and his announcement just made the wound bleed again.
Why can't I be happy for him?
2017-09-21 08:42 marked
If you are prone to jealousy does that mean you are a bad person?