GUYS there litterally just 9 chapter of the MC and blondie together out of 157 chapters and y'all are telling its too much or suffocating? stop showing it in our faces that you don't like, it does't give you a picture of you having a better preference. It's like saying out loud you like bitter coffee and not sweet coffee. I mean I get it. Its your first INTERESTING story without any romance happenning, but y'all just dont get the point do you? The point of the MC saying all those shit to blondie is because she's a FRIEND. (THERE NO ROMANCE YET). The point of the previous chapter is that the MC needs to have closure. Meaning a peaceful ending for himself. Because he knows after experiencing peace is just danger and killing. And it's been on his mind that sooner he'll eventually meet his *SPOILER*
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