sometimes I just want to leave this house for good but I have no job nor can I get one because of extreme social anxiety. even if I managed to, it would take me years to get anywhere near a stable income. plus all of this would need to be done secretly so that my dad (who is the main issue, I can tolerate my mother at times) doesn't find out. if there really is no solution then I guess ill just live with it but that's a depressing thought.
What I understand from the "I want to ruin you" line is that Colton did not want jinwoo to be part of an exhibition and then fail and feel like it was his fault. He wanted to put on a solo exhibition and if jinwoo fails it will not be his fault but instead jinwoo would have a reason to blame someone other than himself. He could put the blame on Colton. say Colton ruined it for him by putting on a shitty exhibition or something.
I DON'T KNOW IF THAT MAKES SENSE BUT IT WAS CUTE IN MY HEAD. I want them to have love 80 seasons with them doing nothing but just hanging out. I love these old men!!!!
or like Colton did not want jinwoo to feel like he ruined Coltons exhibition if it was a lot of people together.
Yeeessss