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ok so i have huge problems with binging whenever im getting close to my period cuz i get really emotional. yesterday (thursday) i ate like 3000 calories and im trying to go on a calorie deficit (1500), and today i binged again like 2500 cals and idk what to do, cuz like im sick, getting close my period and i literally don’t have the motivation to go to the gym or do a home workout right now.

so what should i do?

okay so i’m in highschool, i’m a junior. my grades are abysmal like seriously disgustingly bad, and my parents are asian and im really scared of disappointing them. (ik i should’ve just tried harder at school but im already stuck in this situation so please help me) anyway i’ve been lying about my grades since the start of the school year and we’ve had about 2 grading periods so far. i obviously sidnt get honors in either of them and i had claimed i did to my parents

in my school there is something called a sports banquet and they give awards to student athletes. an award is given out if u get honors AT LEAST ONCE in the school year and i never did. my parents thought i was supposed to get and i obviously didn’t get one. they aren’t that surprised tho because this happened last year, but in THAT situation i actually had the grades to make up for it. now im lwk fucked, i can make a fake award because i have a photo of it but i might be screwed because now they might email the school. what do i do? help me please

does anyone else feel like because they are so ugly they shouldn't be depressed?

idk i guess this is a relationship related question, but compared to my girlfriend, i feel like im so fucking ugly. we both are girls but i can't help but feel like she's on the losing end being with me because im just really ugly. i think that shes so pretty and beautiful, and that she is allowed to feel all kind of emotions about me but im not allowed to because IM the one whose lucky to have her.

and i feel like i cant be happy because everything i think about is how i look and how i want to look. i feel like i shouldn't feel angry or depressed about anything at all because i literally am just too hard to look at to deserve attention. i guess this is pretty counterintuitive because im going on a forum (which is basically asking for attention) but idk im not really looking for compliments. but yeah i dont want to burden people with how i feel like i look ykw?

im suprised theres a thing that perfectly describes how i feel but its whatever.

i love this girl, so fucking much actually. we are dating but not really because she already has a gf that shes gonna break up with. but the point is, our past was really bumpy. it was like a toxic yuri LMAOO, she'd make me mad so id do things to make her mad and it was like back and forth. so we stopped being whatever we thought we were (kinda gay but not), anyway we made up and we are like practically dating now.

but im scared of being gay, im an only girl in an asian household so being gay isn't taken quite lightly. before i didn't care because i didn't really know the consequences of my actions/cared about how my parents would react. but now that im growing up, its kinda settingly in that i gotta be set with my decisions. i haven't loved a girl as much as i loved her. genuinely, i love her so much. i love looking at her, being with her, talking with her, EVERYTHING. but im so scared of my parents finding out since they have been on my ass lately.

i have PCOS and it causes a lot of discoloration everywhere and also hair growth increase. i recently got my eyebrows threaded and the skin around my eyebrows r lighter than the rest of my face and it pisses me off so much. this makes my entire face look really discolored and even without the lighter part of the eyebrows i’m still really discolored.

any tips on how to get rid of it?